My Eclipse Of The Heart

Saturday, October 31, 2009 12:41 AM

there isnt anyone else that can have the wife quality.

it is so hard.

she is like one if the millions i met.

or maybe i should simply look for a gf quality and not care about the future.

it should not be considered as irresponsible i guess.

cos everyone is doing it.

but no matter wat..

i m not a victim.

cos i gained a good fren..

MONOKURO BOO♥

Thursday, October 29, 2009 10:31 PM

nobody nobody but you.

nobody can replace

yes, always, of cos.

MONOKURO BOO♥

Wednesday, October 28, 2009 9:37 PM

I sing a little prayer

And wished for a little flower

In a scarlet rain the breeze has paused

With passion dropped for a lost

I sing a little prayer

Fallen leaves , freezing kisses,

Like a winter all trains have passed

But my heart is forever lost

All lost!!!

All lost....

The little treasure chest i locked,

Not a single cent it now costs.

Certain things gains value when time walks,

Certain things loses as it rusts.

MONOKURO BOO♥

Tuesday, October 27, 2009 8:59 PM

i know its finally settle down.

its finally stabilized..

but i cant help but keep thinking of you.

i cant help but worry about you..

i cant help i cant help!!!!

i don wan the same old thing to happen again..

i don wan!!!!!!!!!!!

i know wat the problem lies.

i need a girlfren who can replace my frens.

you need good frens that can replace a boyfren..

but i have to admit..

i don like the feeling when i cant control myself.

i don like the feeling of emptiness when i m fucking doing so many things.

when i m planning so many activities.

why isnt the time moving?

why is it that i wan nobody nobody but you...

plsss God..

let me fall for some1 else..

even if it causes me more pain.

at least we can still be frens.

at this rate ....

i don wanna end up being strangers,

a passer by on the road.

that feels like i never existed..

i noe i noe..

i will never find any1 else for her sweetness..

and i m never willing to give any1 else as much.

i noe.....

but i m never so determined..

i just wanna be frens...

pls stop my fucking feelings...

MONOKURO BOO♥

Saturday, October 24, 2009 8:49 PM

wwwooooooo hooooo......

i m lazy to type.. but i can let picturs do the talking.. =D

anyway v thnx to my dear 0845A for the present hahaha..

and thnx to my angel and my buddies for all the things =D

YOU ROCK MY LIFE =D

looks like shu ling is harrasing onion

1 bite k-o

come here and watch TV??? =0

my shirts don suit him =D, but he has to wear it to play pool wif us =D

MONOKURO BOO♥

Monday, October 19, 2009 12:26 AM

it is cos of these few days that i need people the most that i realized.

no 1 has been so sweet to me before..

thank you jiaying =D

i will pay back as a forever loyal fren.

if our thread of destiny ever get tangeld together in the future,

i will forever be a loyal one too. =)

MONOKURO BOO♥

Friday, October 16, 2009 10:49 PM

i have never felt so hard to let go...

i shall only work for my career goals and see wat happens in 10 yrs..

for now, let things go as destined to be..

stop imagining hongyu.

you can do it.

MONOKURO BOO♥

6:46 PM

finally i got mood to blog! =P

wa seh..

kinda thinking there are too many things to blog.

hmm.......

my stupid belly =(

and that stupid polyclinic,

made me go emergency department..

walao eh.

inside they poke the needle cannot take out during hospitalisation.

and the food inside is really sucks.. lols.

the surgery is even more scary.

when you know you are gonna get unconscious in a few seconds,

well...........

its gonna freak you out.

but they got the heart beat thing which i can hear,

so i had to calm down, if not my heart beat will sound so fast, and so pai sei.. lols.

when they push me into the operation room its like watching drama,

seeing the ceiling moving below while lying on the moving bed being pushed in..

then the light up...

then the shadowless light system shines......

and they actually gave me an general anesthetic for that small surgery.

and made me feel so uncomfortable la.

that mac i asked wei chi to bring for me,

i could not even eat more than 5 bites before i almost puke them out.

rushed down some drink and stopped.

was solely dependent on that potassium chloride solution that goes in through that needle that sticks in my hand all the time.

then night time mok came and watch TV at the tv room for patients =.=

while i try to settle my discharge form etc..

soo lucky that i managed to go home late night before my bday =D din have to count down in hospital.. hehe..

oh forgot to mention, cosi could nt eat my lunch provided by the hospital and the mac brought by wei chi,

she actually ate them all =.=

and told me she always eat hospital food when she visit ppl.. zzzz

i will pray she go hospital often then,

but not for me ..... =.=

hmm..

yesterday my bday..

well.... i could not go anywhere further than amk.

which is sooo sad..

but i see the warming messages my frens send for me,

its kinda helpful to relieve my negative emotions.

now i have 15 days of mc and have to go for dressing of the wound everyday.

just hope my studies could cope.

and my plans for bday celebration all ruined up..hahaha.

well i got my biggest bday present ever- a deep cut on my belly =D

but at least.

this hospitalization made me fell some super super warming love and concern..

i don mind going in a few more times =P

hehe... ok la.. thats not the way.

now i just hope i can do well in my exams.

hope i can focus.

and thank you to all my frens who showed me your concern these few days and those who wished me happy bday =D

each and everyone means alot to me.

my dear friends =D

and the only You......

lets all work hard.!

we will see the light... really...

life is not just about suffering,

its about how u enjoy those sufferings =P

my mum is a photoholic too =.=

see that greedy face =D

MONOKURO BOO♥

Sunday, October 11, 2009 6:11 PM

was a stupid area for infection.

belly button.

no cut no wound =.=

and its such a hindrance.

i could not go for my bball match!

hope i can recover soon pls..

i don wanna spend my bday at home..

it is always such a melting sweet voice.

even if without a sweet tone.

it melts me.

and i m going for the freezer.

alas,

i feel the drifting away.

so glad.

its fading off. =)

MONOKURO BOO♥

1:06 AM

oh man.

i m seriously down with intestine infection.

my belly button got bleed and pus .. zzz..

its bloody pain..

i sneeze also pain, cough also pain, go toilet when "push" also pain.. wth..

yesterday could have used the day wisely de.

end up cannot tahan anymore at library and had to ask ling li help me carry my bag home.

omg.

so diu lian.... lols.

i don like the feeling of being a burden...

but the doctor is super uselss.

she still tot is muscle sprain.. =.=

hmm..

today whole day at home.

cos could nt risk going out.and my mum went out without my bro.

walao.

had to babysit him.

and i could not do a shit.

but actually he nt there i also cant study la.

cos the computer is so distracting..zz.

i m gonna study tml..

i will..!

oh man.

when i sit i think of her.

when i eat i think of her.

when i wake up i think of her.

why cant i walk off gracefully just once.

disgrace.

i nv done anything amoral,

i m not into self indulgence.

but i have the same problem as David Lurie,

i don understand the heart of any lady.

i always tot i did.

and that is such a disgrace to myself.

i dont act as if i know anymore.

i will not know anything.

maybe the best way to forget her is to give my love to some1 else like ah bear said.

but isnt that starting a whole new cycle of this tortures.

i donno why.

the one i fall for always is so impossible. lols.

maybe my taste is those who don suit me.

well..

but no matter wat.

i don want us to be reduced to strangers.

no matter wat i do,

i will make sure,

we will be friends forever.

i will protect this frenship, protect you.

and convert this love to the love for a fren.

cos love for a fren need not any term and condition.

love for a fren never fades away.

never swings.

it wont bring sadness. =)

but well.

i noe.

one day, i will find my second half.

the 1 that loves me as much as i love her. =D

until then, you are still the most important person in my life.

cos you locked away my most treasurerous memories =P

now as my most important fren. =)

but i m practicing one thing.

not relying you for company like i did.

but when u need, i will be there.

i m not stating i m very noble, cos i really v free =.=

control hongyu..

control.

you can do it =D

i learnt so much in this 8 months.

and it will shape me a better guy.

hehe.. grateful leh =D

but well.

theres no turning back le...

and i do understand.

this age is really not suitable for such thing.

cos the school is to stressful.

it wont allow them to have such free time and mood for relationships.

at least i know, its none of our fault. =)

and moreover you still have one more year.

just work hard f or As everyone

our future will be bright. =)

actually i have to admit. after my long journey of searching for my wife.

i have to admit.

friends are the best!! =D

but of cos, only worth frens.

hahaha..

MONOKURO BOO♥

Friday, October 9, 2009 12:40 AM

omg..

i cant believe it.

i studied from like 11am till 8 pm =D

heng i nv go sku ah..

today sku only got like gp and econs..

2 lessons =.=

even C lit paper 1 mock exam as cancelled.

phew.

the only way i an study is to wake up after..

and its proven to be so true. =.=

thnx to ling li ah..

who suddenly wan to chiong mugging,

and shhhhed me each time i cant control my mouth and talk..

lols...

tml needa go sku already..

hope my insteine ache or muscle tear or whatever can recover soon ..

but the medicine i got will drowsy =.=

irritating.

best of luck to my J1 buddies.

chen hui, pei qi, and jiaying.

you all better promote hoh =D

tml is a better day! =)

MONOKURO BOO♥

Tuesday, October 6, 2009 9:28 PM

omg la..
this i phone....
its RED!!!!!!
and the camera slightly better, 3mp..
but then.
OMG!
IT HOT RED!!!!!!
walaooooo..
its like..
the colour
the texture...
its totally my dream phone!!! except that its camera is not 5 mp..
but then..
omg!!!
i fell for it the 1st sight la..
LOL....
its launghing soon but i noe it will remain my dream phone..
cos i can only afford it in my dream =.=
sighz....

MONOKURO BOO♥

Friday, October 2, 2009 11:19 PM

LOL.
that is so funny..
as random as you were..
i saw something that comfirms me that you are just a loser.
you think you two' s problem is cos of me?
and try to avoid me? .
well.. thats a amature escapist.

and now that when i m suffering and trying to work on my frenship wif her,
it becomes a reverse psychology to you . o.0
what a joke.
wat right do you have to judge me when you havent talked to me for months.
that right do you have to critisize on something i post with tears.
what right do you have to judge me when you don even know what i have been doing for her.
maybe you donno how to respect other ppl.
well i just hope you can respect yourself.
and stop being a loser.
I don need that cynical and sarastic remark.
but i know my frens will understand me and respect me.
but not a loser who does not treat frenship like the sacret thing its supposed to be.
giving it up easily when you know i fell for the gal u like.
and more importantly, i fell for her 1st.
ironic huh.

well, i can only wish you good luck.
continue disguse yourself like the only victim.
and continue to be a loser...

you know who you are.
and you know what i mean.
how silly i was to even symphatise with you.
just get lost from my life and don ever mention me.
i will be super grateful.

well.. this message could only be passed to you if u randomly come here again.

jia you and b e more random and sarastic ..
you will win an award soon.

and the name of the award is- " campion for stepping on broken hearts"

well, sorry if any1 thinks i m exaggerating anything.
the only way i can help you yo understand is when you are having depression over the lost of your love, must be serious enough to cry a few hours.
then ask some1 come and look at you and say- well, its human nature to use reverse psychology...
but pls control don slap that person....

so irritated by this shit.

MONOKURO BOO♥

my new eye candy!!! =D

2:25 AM

woohoo..
i have a new eye candy!!! that is....
陈琳 in the drama of "痞子英雄" =D
its a suepr super nice show la.. omg.
thnx to xiao ling for introing to me.. LOL..
there will definitely be blank times at this times of transition.
i noe my frens wont be able to fill all of them..
but i can find thigns to fill my own life =D
though learnign this method from wei chi seems to be regressing my age.
LOL.
but well.
sometimes its quite fun to 追星。。
at least you wont have hope and there wont be disappointments.
just like a fairy tale..
live in my imagination.
and life will be much more wonderful.. =D
we all need an escape from this brutal life.
this is quite a cool method ...
i was chooing bwteen her and hebe .. lols.
and i decided, the drama is too nice le..
sadly, she got no album to buy =(
gonna find her wallpapers =P

MONOKURO BOO♥