good evening.
i m sooooo dead..
why?
cos i failed everything except my chinese..
cool huh...
yes very cool..
and i m trying very hard not to show how bad mood i am..
thats even more cool.. =D

omg la..
msia is so cool la.
lol..
i promise myself i m not gonna buy anythign from sg again =D
and i changed my impression on chen hui..
see his outfit in msia if i nv wear properly i will feel so zi bei la. lol.s
and to be able to drive is so fun.
oh he let me drove a bit.. =P
and its quite easy to learn. but its feels v stress though =.=..
oh.
he wasted like 30% of his tire to drift.. lols.. quite dumb.
i till remmeber the maximum speed he drove was 135km /hr
which is like totally impossible in singapore? lols.
and almost hit into a car when he competing wif some1 who wants to overtake us lol...
but well i have to admit his skill super good.
=D
thats why i m stil safe and sound. =.=


oh i forgot.
thurs met tummy to eat and catch up.
ate at aston at doby gauht..
lols.1st time i go queue up and wait for a meal =.=
but the steak was scrumptious.. =D
watched gamer which was like a super porno show =.=
but the ending is LOL.
well but i don suggest to watch it. haha.

fri went steamboat wif wen yuan and ah hui.
lol.
that shop only got china ppl..
they felt as if being kidnapped.lols.
went to play left 4 dead a while and k pool..
i m owning them as usuall =D
mum gave mi like 400 msia dollars co the previous time she went there to tour din use finish.
hehe
msia i m coming back soon..
wait for me my super nie jacket!!!

malaysia is so cool!
i swear i m nt gonna buy anything from singpore anymore =D
cos the things i buy are all price elastic and the price in msia is so many times cheaper =D
i m not feeling v well now so i m gonna describe it only tml. =D
time to rest.

Man are like this..
only when u give up something.
u realise how much u love them..
actually i know it all along..
but sometimes i have to admit to fate..
sometimes love could only bring unplesant experience.
sometimes its better to accept certain facts..
when its only creating troubles.
pressures.
sadness.

mayeb we should really reconsider
wouldnt it be better just to let go.
i tried to find other solutions.
i went to be an escapist.
but the best and most suitable answer is right in front of my eyes.
just let go.
if i dont.
how am i going to act as a normal fren.
its too tiring to disguse i don care.
to promsie i wont care..
when i cant at all.
cos i havent let go.
i should have realised the amount of pressure i m creating for you.
when i m not even anything to you, i m already producing this amount of negative things.
how would any1 accept such a me.

thats why,
i m just a loser.
but i wan to be a wise one

now i see the solution for a better frenship.
and i will seize it.
and never turn back..

and my tears will be my witness.

this is the last time i will cry for you.

lets work hard for our own future.
my good fren.




我达达的马蹄声是个美丽的错误，
我不是归人，
是个过客。
我以我最坦诚的心祝福你，
永远幸福快乐。

但是，我的生命里，永远会有一片关于你的记忆，
虽然连照片也没有一起的，
但那永远都会是一个美丽的童年回忆。
一条走错的路上遇到的并让我爱的无法自拔的陌生人。

我爱你。

-李佳颖



我终于敢用你的名字了。








god,
if you really exist,
pls stop me from crying.

what do i know.






what am i doing.





what should i do.





i think i noe.





alright ....

what more can i say.
jurong safra kbox is simply LOL..............
can even record ur songs and bluetooth for u !
i m trying hard to upload my recordings =D
but ahem.
had to wait 50 min for ah bear..
continue to be guilty ba =P

i looked up in the sky,
into these maginificent eyes.
blinked like fire sparkles,
dimed like how i sigh.

i looked into my open mind,
into the innocent beautiful whine.
how i wished i could have one,
a little love just for tonight.

happy hari raya to all my muslim friends.. lols.
its quite miracle the i could make so many muslim friends,
guess its all god' s will to arrange me into this jc,
into this class where i m the only chinese! LOLs.
but wells, i survived here, and every1 has been nice to me. =D
jia you for A levels all my friends..
i love all my frends =P
cos before i got my life partner,
u and my family are everything to me.



missing you

i also donno why i hated him.
not because he is a rival of mine,
but because he chose to give up a frenship over such a thing.
but when i saw his blog.
somehow i can feel the pain he suffers.
cos i feel it too.
though i m in a much better situation.
we are both at the starting point..
i feel his pain and struggles.
and surprisingly,
it hurted mi.
i felt hurt for him and symphatising him.
well.
i cannot decide for him.
but i wish i m given a chance to salvage this frenship.
cos it all started wif a misunderstanding that i tried to solve
which created more misunderstandings and escapism...
and i m not gonna doubt his love for her..
but all of us are humans.
hope god light a correct path for us.



i m closer..
but.. so close. yet so far..
everything is uncertain..
to be frank.
i don have any confidence at all..
i don even dare to use her name...

hmm..
wat a week end..
left with case study and i will have a long break.
but i cannot waste it.
=)

friday was a treat.
got to watch a movie wif my piggy =P
the movie "the ugly truth" is so vulgar and perverted la.. lols.
but the plot is quite nice..
and i used the free tickets.. so it was totally FOC f or us =P
lols..

then sat..
studied a while .
met ah bear to watch "4bia2"
cos 4bia 1 was kinda nt bad..
and 4bia2 got 5 stories instead of 4..
and the funny thing is.
the last story is more funny than scary.. LOL.
omg
the twist is super funny..
u gotta watch it..
and i found something cute outside the theatre
outside the nebo cafe there got a event thing..
and out of my instinct,
bought it for my piggy..
LOL..
its totally pink and cute and the person i buy from looked at mi wif a weird expression =.=
its nt for myself ..=.=
today went church service and then home whole day..
omg
i din study much.!
fonna spend my day wisely tml..
=D






argh.
why do i feel so weird...

yawnz...i feel so bored..
this whole week got 6 papers...
5 of 3hr papers and 1 2h and 15 min paper.. =.=
dam boring la..
nvm.. 1 last 1 to go and i have like 4 days to study for my econs case study??
so lame la!!
LOL..
case study leh..
need so many days..

and its on tues..
after tues?
no mroe exam and it is connected with marking days..
omg i got 6 whole days o f holiday =P
and wen yuan being so excited and ji dong just because he has 4 days o f break..LOL
should i plan to play or should i plan to study more??? hmm.
its been long since i play bball.
and i can only do 7 pull ups without kicking..
LOL ..
this is wat i call regression..
no way.
i m gonna train...

haiz..
cannot let Arif teach me how to gym since he is expelled.
sadly, he was nt accepted into serengoon jc..
so bloody lame..

when he 1st came ijc, i admit his temepr was nt very good.
but he has always been very polite.
at least to his frens..
and help his frens whenever they need help.
and i was his very first fren in ijc..
yet i cannot do anything to help him.
and wth?
cos of 1 idiot..
he wasted 2 years..
i know the matter has been few months old.
but its only recently that i returned to my blog.
and today this irritating matter came across my mind.
i cant help but linger over it cos the reason that caused his fight was so trivial.
cos of 1 bullet mouth.
filthy and disgusting...
lols.
and that, boy, ruined my fren' s life..
i hope u feel guilty.
but i wont blame you.
and i cant..
but God has eyes, he has plans for you dude.
whatever it is.
good luck.

wat a weird inspiration of sweeping aggression. =.=
nvm.
my nap now.



You, the fusillade of the storm,
driven my pal out his room.

a gap of shame he marked on You,
a stamp of indignant foul that holds.

Beware my fren, the rage has flowed,
the roof it drips, the pumper it fills.

your calpable visage i forecast,
and to him it will blast.

ahhhhh.
i give up studying for econs. lols.
got so much to cover =.=

and computer is so distracting!!!!
lols.
anyway thnx to wei chi for wishing mi good luck =.=
and don worry, i wont be thinking of u when i do my test. lols..
why scare myself =X

and thnx RR for reminding mi and wishing mi gd luck also..

sian la..

tml got 2 test!!!!!!





and i wish my piggy could have a speedy reovery =(

From now i shall post with text colours that reflects my mood..lols..

yesterday went to woodlans to study.
cos i heard that rong rong everyday go there study alone.. lols.
next time i cannot find ppl study wif mi noe who to find le.
can even shun bian ask her maths.. lols.
so cool....=P

but v ke xi, afternoon got to rush off for my church cell group activity.
and the activity was making moon cakes =.=
we played a super stupid game while making the mooncake..lols.
but quite fun..
can try it wif my frens next time..
then mok came my house to eat dinner.

i donno why recently always feel so tired and lazy.. lols.
could have played bball yesterday but was too lazy to go..
and i ts been long since i last thawned wif wei jian they all.
stupid A level!! lols.
and today i din go to church service..
got some headache..
but maybe part of mi is being lazy..
anyway.
i din study alot today.
its been quite inefficient.
cos i m in a shut down mode.
nono.
power saver mode!
yawn......

but hmm..
i was given a sweet sweet potion by my piggy..
=P
really really sweet..
haha..




all the time of laugh and tear,
all the sorrows that weeped my fear.
is but a passing wind,
if my heart wont let it swing.

even if, we are lines,
only being tangled up,
it is, nevertheless, a beautiful disaster,
that taints but pays..

haha.. i noe its kinda late..
but some how these few days i just don feel like sleeping early =P

and i have a sudden urge to thank all my frens.
especially my best frens in sku, wen yuan and chen hui for always supporting me..
haha..
but, anyway,
what are frens for? lols..

well.. and suepr great thnx to xiao ling. (jasmine)
for introing this song specially for mi..haha.

and i feel so much more confident after seeing the lyrics..

here it is:

范玮琪 - 你只有一个词/曲:徐洁儿

你看你 眉头都打结了

你熟悉的坚韧 到哪儿去了

别因时光而磨损

快找回那自信的眼神

不要因为爱错了一个人

就否决爱美好的可能

不管如何都不要忘记你是最好的

要相信你绝对有幸福的资格

你只有一个 独一无二

他不懂珍惜是他太笨

有多少人等着要做你最最在乎的人

你只有一个 那么独特你

值得你期盼的快乐当

你不再非他不可他会知道

失去的多难得

一定会找到珍惜你的人 全世界就非要你不可

i think i skipped 1 phrase.. lols.
but the general idea is here...
din expect her to be so kind..lols.
thnx ah...


and surprisingly,
i came across a note given by my "angel"
who was assigned to be my angel for an ange land mortal game within nma exco last yr.
and i realise her messages are so dam sweet..lols.
omg..
apprantly i only gave my mortal- Huda 3 things... lols.
and one of them is a lame candy..
wat my angel gave is like 1 whole bottle of stars.
and each letter wif 1 star stick to it so i can put into the bottle.
and each letter wif soem sweets or food.
i bet i m the most fortunate mortal in the game..
i bet..haha..
well i m not supposed to noe who it is..
but i knew it anyway..
so thnx so much =P
though u wont come across my blog, lols.
i wish u all the best for ur exams.. FRR...
ur sis did it, so can you..

haha.. and last but nt lease, thnx gong yi, ling li and ah bear for the company when i bored or wan to study together.. =)

and thnx my little sis to let mi suan when i bored.

its just so busy to think of the good things..
where got time for my brain to fill the unhappy things? =)

go go fighting.....!
i can do it.



oh ya, the sonnet i wrote for national day.
though our class din win the prize for statue.
i think its only fair to save my hard work here..



Scarlet wings

Carolling on the scarlet date,
Dancing in the angelic fate.
Devotion we give to our nest,
A gift of love here to rest.

Boxes of courage now we stack,
Hand in hand our crisis would crack.
In the shelter our sleeps be sound,
A world of utopias come to round.

And in the nest, so glad we found,
All the eggs cracked but sound.
Spreading their wings, brought their wit
Eagled eyes, the aggression is sweet.

Now the wind is under their feet,
Diversified, our goals would fleet.



-hongyu 0845a















good night!

To my dear fren who is now in confusion..

cheer up =)

i have no right to judge cos i donno the situation within their heart.

i donno wat they are up to..

but i know about you.

just follow ur heart and see if u wan him..

if you noe you need his presence, his company, his voice, his heart.

give yours out generously.

and don be afraid to lose anything..

cos love is a business that never makes a loss.......

LOL.
1st post after so long..
update..

1st, i m super stressed over sku work.
cos my teachers are picking on me..

2nd, i realised i grew alot wif my encounter wif my piggy.
i learnt alot.
and i will learn to treasure and nv give up..
=)

3rd..
my prelims is around the corner..
i need find ppl study wif mi. lol.

and my bball deprove like siao..
gonna train bball back after As..
i have got so much plans..

-learn drving
-learn vocal
-learn magic
-learn piano
-find some fun part time work
-go taiwan and malaysia!!!! (or maybe japan or hong kong or vietnam =)
-save up for the that earring for her..

but now the biggest enermy is A level =(

go go fighting!!!


we can do it.
cos we are smart ppl...