T-T
so tring..
everyday 7 plus reach home de..zz..
wed went to sickbay again during lit =.=
cos the PE is really killing mi.
maybe i push myself too hard.. z.z..
but i just cant follo any lesson after my PE..
had my ogl meetings on wed and thurs lols.
and today had to stay back for exco meeting and drawing of my og cloths.. lols.
i cant believe we end up drawing jigglypuff for on every of the cloth,
which took mi like 1 hr?
my hand was dam numb.. lols.
i was still fearing that shamini would kill us... lols.
but surprisingly many ppl says its nice..LOL
do they really think os or just giving face?
i shall upload some photos ba..
its so dry in my blog recently due to my laziness =P

oh, today went all the way to dover to meet my seller for a story book LOL.
though i wasted 3hrs in traveling,. i m v proud of myself cos the book cannot be bought in sg de!!!
the person bought in china and brought to sg sia.. omg.
so happy =P
well wat kind of story book is it? haha.
the desctiption really attracted mi:


"its about a gal whose bf died somehow, and found the guy whom hus bf' s heart got transplanted to, and tried to appoach and get close to him. only later on to discover that his bf' s heart isnt transplanted to him and he also realsied the true intension she goes near him.. .."

whee... and its a chinese story book sia..
its been so long sicne i read a chinese novel. hehe.
i m gonan finish it in 2 days..

wheeeeeeee. .
wat a new year.. lols....
a v good question.
why dont i have to go bai nian? =.=
cos i don have a took to teleport mi to china? haha..
at least yesterday got more ppl that don bai nian like mi..lols.
morning watched eden lake wif doreamon .. lols.
nice nick hoh..
i tot i finally got to watch a horror show!!
and its m18 somemore leh, dam hard to find pl to watch wif de lo.
and i was totally cheated by the description..
its not the most horrifying show, its the most disgusting and inhuman show.. wtf la.
lols..
we were super tramatised by how the children murder ppl..zz..
and were both covering our eyes.. LOL ...
just the sound, the scream etc can make ppl shiver liao..
esp the part when the main actor is slashed..zz..
"ahhh" .... " nooo" .." plss, let mi go"
and the ppl cutting them?
a bunch of 12 yr olds...walao eh..

heng it was early, so we went to k box to sing out de fears..
it works for mi.. lols
though it was dam ex on new year day =(
but can laugh at xiao ding dang sing ...lols..
and i realsied she wing wif the choir technique. lols.
using all the jia yin .. wa power..
ok, then after a while got the sms from jing wen.. lols.
forgot she invited mi for movie wif the "china" clique.
and they agreed to watch da xi shi..woots...
there were like at least 3 i donno cos zi hang brought his friends..
ya, and they invited doreamon too, so we both went to join them.
though we got to wait outside the cinema dam long when the show already started, thnx to zi hang!!
the show was really really nice..
=P
watch le can awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww..
lols...
it was a tiring day...ah..
oh oh, i got introed 1 super ncie book,
and i found that it has a drama series!!! omg ..

oh man..
but today got lots of hw to do..lols.
lets see if i can finish =(

LOL.. this feels so tiring even tough i was sitting down since 3 pm? =P
yesterday was dam tiring also!!!
went to china town wif church cell group.
omg the place is super super crowdy la..
lols... and i was constantly gayed by cheng en.. .=.=
but i m shocked to noe he is a grade 8 pianonist omg..

and ya, today went to church service.
and had reunion dinner lols.
i m extremely glad that i got the most amount of hong bao this yr...=P from my family alone.
if i m gonna visit any fren, woots....
LOL..
i m so fortunate hmm..
and i cant believe there are really dramatic miseries happening
hmm.. let mi just pray for u and ur family, my dear audition fren...
hmmmmmm...
at the same time..
i m just so gratefull..
all the new yr messages,
all the wishes, all the supports, all my frens..
i will do my best to commit as a good fren =)
cos i noe i cannot live without any of you =P

lastly,
i m searching for nce story books!!
miracle huh.. =P

CHEERS ANNE =)
CHEERS Wei Chi =)

CHEERS HONGYU!!!
YOU SHOULD BE HAPPY!!!!




i wanna sing out loud..................

sometimes i cant help but feel a sense of lost.
the emptiness i cant excile.
i have unplucked my ward, and abandoned the arc of frost.
O glad, i found a greet with a shining smile.

i ashed to a little ray, perchance landed on star.
but the decaying passion, lingeringly has climbed.
fataly, it smelled my scar,
yet to be hidden,
i found a subtle passionate blood. .

oh man..
that news is just too shocking..
too suddenly and impossible..
its only a few weeks..
.................................
i have no idea what i can do for you.
all i can do for u is give u my support as a fren..
jia you..

jiu ming ah.. i m dying lols..
thursday and friday was deadly tiring.
cos got homecoming tests.. omg..
thurs had to reach home at almost 9!!!!
LOL.. impossible huh..
and for friday, the lit test was scheduled at 3 40 while i end at 12 40 =.=
so went to watch movie wif wen yuan and chen hui. lols.
cos i totally gave up on my lit ..
and we could not watch red cliff due to the super long duration for that movie..
and decided to watch ong bak2 which was a bloody bloody show =.=
but it din help to keep mi awake,
cos i was day dreaming during half of my test time =P

sat!!!! woo..
its a fun day ^^
went to k box wif my church cell group..
1st time go wif so many ppl la lols.
10 ppl in snatching over 3 mics ...hmm...
though alot don dare to sing at all.
got a few super mic hogger.. LOL
and jia jun i s super pro la.
he got a li jiu zhe voice which stunned mi for seconds..
his guitar is so dam pro ..ahh
so jealous.. lols.
afetr that paid a little visit to anderson fo the grand opening of the sports hall.
and i got to see elizabeth back to singapoe...wow..
lols. its been super long..
but the sku had no activity, and mo kwas accompanying mi.
so i left earlier to prevent mok from complaining..
and saw chicky meal at coffee shop ..
oh man. i still cannot imagine he could do so well for o level in being in a normal acade class.
LOL..
i must buck up..
oh yes.. went to church to see their bball trainig till almost 9, and left to play left for dead and home sweet home like finally.

and today was another day unableto sleep..ahh.
church service from morning till 4 pm leh. lol.
i was in a power saver mode ..
my eyes could shut anytime.
but at least, the consolation is that i get to watch red cliff today =)
its been a tough war persuading mok =P
and the movie was quite nice... hm..
gotta hnt for more movies..

oh man, tml still neea go sku early to discuss about the newscast project on CNW i have just received..
reporter and emceeing at the same time huh? lets see if i can split =.=




let mi erase my perception,
spray my smile and remove that selfishness of mine.

"If you have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call 'failure' is not the falling down, but the staying down. "~

Mary Pickford

haha.. ok, this quote is encouraging.
when entrust my faith to jesus, i guss i m able to reflect more on myself.
my sins, my mistakes and the real self.
due to my heavy work i had to take a break from my life also..
i m constantly hearing about backstabbing, fakers, bitchers.
i detest them to the core.
but what am i,
have i done nth that harm the reputation of other ppl.
no..
i m not clean too.
may it be accident or slipped through my mouth,
i did not give them room for respect when i said certian things too.
may it be our of aggression or revenge,
it was not rightful.
i was so arrogant.
but i m really tired of this faking game.
i noe what i hear about them may not be true.
i noe it may be perception that i see devils around.
but at least,
i m not gonna entertain them.
theres no need to say hello to people u really don understand,
u suspect, u cant trust.
cos it would be a fake one.
why not make it simple...
and silence is the tool.
i would be a mirror,
i would reflect whatever action people do infront of mi.
and give them the exact same thing.
i m not a booth licker,
my pride, aha, will never allow mi to.
i cant be a schemer, my brain, oh no. cannot make it.
i cant be a defender, i go for emotion, not logic.
thus, i would reflect.
an smile for an smile, a helping hand for a helping hand.
a trust wif a trust and a fren for a fren.
i m not an magician, i cant see thorough people.
i can only hear.
but by the hearing of wind and wave could blind you.
and being in blindnes its not safe.
but i wont move a step,
for i dont know the consequences.
would i fall or step up,
is it a trap or a ladder.
are they trustable or fakers.
no.
i cant know.
i m not a magician.
so, i stop.
i pray for them,
and in the dust and ashes, i repent for my mistakes.
in my astonishment, i pray for them.
to love one another, for we are all god' s children.





it was a rather long post of repementment, but i guess, thats the only way to fill up my hole.
to repent.
yesterday and today was rather tiring.
yesterday had to edit script and practice about the emceeing till 5 plus again.
and got a call from mum that whole family at sembawang beach -.-
and we met at amk kfc for dinner as a family.
lols. family outing. i din thought about it for years..
and now i m glad my parents din listen to mi..
its true a car may be unecessary,
it may be true that formign reliance on a car isnt a good thing.
but really, the externalities, other than the cost is great.
at least,i still have an complete family.
an they are actually getitng along better.
amazing.

somehow mok came out of his army camp for a few hours wif his army frens.
and jioed mi to virtue land for a game of left for dead.
being so stressed, i happily went there to meet him.
and we were stuck att he final stage for advanced difficulty for 8 rounds lols.
till we changed to normal then comple =.=

today leh, had a super long lessons. lol.
no break for 4 hrs.. =.=
ok tml will be 5 hrs...
but its really exeggrating.
lols. cos we have like 4 hours or more extre hours of lesson each week.
and had to go hall for reharsel for emcee almost right after sku.
but i was so happy that i could use the piano being the earliest =P
lols...the reharsel is scary la.
all chinese teachers came.
and stare at us like judges =.=
and estehr was still complaining that she got too much to say.
while i have a tongue twister sentence and the announceing winners part, which is super long la.. zz...
oh ya.. today got the ogl group mates lsit.
and i m wif dummie =.= omg.
omg. omg..
i can imagine being the only 1 talking.....................LOL.
according to some genuis, it may be a plan to att mi by putting mi wif her?? !!... LOL
that was adding on to my emoness. =.=
hm.. hm....
i doubt any1 would be so bo liao ba =.=
though i still wonder why all the indians are together in 1 group.
nvm..
i just hope my orientation would simple and fun.
if such hting really happen theres nth i can do about it..
let mi pray.
for my mistakes and theirs.
and let us love one another to live a simple life. =)

omg.. i still feel so dead.. lols.
1st day of sku and i havent started on my hw.
wed and thurs is the home test =.=
and wed got reharsel for CNY celebration lols.
at least the good thing is our teachers are much better, much mroe fun, much mroe enthu than last year =)
and maybe lenient? ..eh.. hopefully =X
actualy i could have gone home at 2 plus =.=
but the script writting of the emcee thing took mi and esther till 5pm la..
sian sia, mr chow wants to add in alot diff explanations about CNY leh... omg.
oh, and i just realsied estehr and vanessa are good frens.. lols.
the world is so small.
and she is netball team captain..
ehh..
ok, its unfair to compare her wif elia.
cos elia is really too good at sports..
tml still got mornign broadcast..arghhhh..
time to sleep =)


世界上最远的距离， 是从好友变回了陌生人。

now, i m gonna start my war officially wif COCKROACHES!! ZZZZZ...
i went to bed at 3 am, and, afetr a few hours, i suddenly felt ichy.
i knew somehtign was not right..zz
and it followed by the erre feeling of somehting crawling on my back and it was a cockroach =.=
walao eh..
when i try to chase it out of my room, ir miraclely just went under my bed, which is like no pace to go in de, and disappeared.. lols.
and i did not dare to sleep after that =.=
today come back from church, worked wif my ah ma and turned my room upside down, and still, we could not find it..
omg la. lols.

ohoh.. that is just tiny matter,
the big matter is my church service today =P
omg la. it was dam fun lols.
though the class thing quite long, from 9 30 till almost 1,
the activity from 2 - 4 was reallly fun. lols.
oh, and my ah ma' s leg finally recovered, w
so we could shift the bed and i can finally play my piano ..wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
sku day tml, hw not done.. lols. good luck to mi =)

yawn..
1stly, i got a jap name =P thnx to クランゆき, i got a jap name of らしい!!
which means ray LOL..
ya, cos i like the english name raye ma =)
i wan to rid of my emo habit,
i wanna be a simple ray, though may be insignificant, though v minute and little,
i could light up a l ittle, i could warm my surrounding a little.
i wan to share my warmth and light wif my frens =)
i realised, only when frens are around, i would never feel sad..
i m not destroyed by setbacks, i m destroyed by lonliness.. haha.
maybe that explains why i crave for friends ba..
well, theres no right or wrong.. i shall be myself that i wan to be =)

alright, i need to reflect a little.. hm..
why am i so stubborn. or maybe proud..
lols. ok la, cos it really wasnt my fault? hm..
no..
though i love nma so much, i give in quite a fair bit,
i did not do my best.
i did not meet the expectation the teachers expected.
i wasnt initiative.
now i realised, to be true leader,
i have to be the mover, i need to start.
being told wat to do and accomplish it is not enough.
that 30 min of smiling scolding.
i would not let it be erased.
let it remind mi of my mistake.
and work hard for the recruitment drive =)

hmm.
it was really tiring yesterday =(
and when the nma thing finished, i was dismissed at 5 plus.. lols.
and i set to watch movie wif yun jie at 7 plus, cos i did not noe when i would be dismissed.
and when i failed to change to earlier timing cos she was sleepign when i called.zz.
and the PS people gotta settle some somehting and jin xiang could not pei mi float.. lols.
and i was emoing behind the woodland mrt wif some bangalas la =.=
LOL.. walao eh..
dam pathetic..
ok la, i wasnt emoing since wei chi called to chat wif mi.
really gratefull...
though she was so reluctant. lols..
and when i could not tahan le, went to kfc to eat alone............
dam emo leh...zz.
luckily saw the " Heads" for nma, prob they finished their meeting.. lols.
and i get a seat within them.
but it was quite uncomfortabe for mi for obvious reason.
i guess i m kinda bad at befriending higher authorities ppl.
why do i feel a barrier =.=. lols.
and when i was eating, yj still dare to ask mi eat faster and quckly go get tickets when she was 30 min late.zz.
ok, and the movie was ...........
Boring like siao.
lols..
no wonder no 1 wanna watch that movie la.
yes. it was7 pounds.. .
we both agreed that the only part that is exciting was when he was dying =X
i cant believe i m so saddistic..lols.
and i reached home at 11 ? zzz
i was so tired that i just went to sleep after 30 min of msn..lols.
so impossible of mi to waste my weekend like that.
i have not played any dota game for almost 2 weeks!!!!!!zzz...

ok, slept early, and woke up at 12 lols.
a super last mind information that huan sheng gonna eat seoul garden wif mok today.zz..
cos he own hi ma bday meal.....
walao eh.. like everyday buffet leh..
dam ex leh....zzz
lols.
the gum siap huan sheng wanted to stay till 6 30 tosettle dinner also =.=
pls la..
at least, the only thing i conqured there is my new converse RED bag =P
i did not need to convince my mum to allow mi buy it, cos it had a 40% discount and my mum discovered it and told mi =P
the only rpoblem is huan sheng bought a black 1 which is same design.
that seems too gay to wear it when he does.. lols.
i m begining to worry, tml' s church day and i cant fall asleep.. =.=
good luck huh.
a whole day of church, and 2 motnhs of hw untouched.
and a emcee script for chinese new year celebration and morning broadcast for tues.. lol

woo.. i m sooooo busy.. lols.
monay - Pre U sem interview, learning SLO dance... lols.
after that went to pizza hut wif melvin ian and kah kiat..
i could not believe we could chat there for 4 hrs =.= wow..

tuesday and wednesday were totally cool la..
the training for pre U sem is really enriching..
and most importantly, the people are all leaders,
they are just so ON and frendly =)
especially sharan, sheela, zub, lutfi, shamini, mae, sara, eve, just too many new frens i made,
which i could not believe myself also.. =)
and t he trainer is just too brilliant ... haha.
we all cried while we say good bye =(
hmmm, went to eat mac wif melvin and ian again after the 2nd day training.

today-- omg
it was soo helish.. lols.
decroating the booths took so bloody long la..
from 8 plus go sku till evening 7 like that then can leave leh..
then we all buay tahan till mass delivery of mac.. lols...
then we ended up short of 1 fries..
then both vannessa and i go use 1 empty box and ask around to spare fries for that person. lols.
then ended up got 1 box of extra fries =.=
so funny la..
and it wasnt the end.. lols.
lelia and i had to go all the way to jurong point to ask about our NMA T shirt ..
which seems quite complicated.. =.=
and i only reached home at 9 30.... ah..
tml will be another harsh day..
hope i can tahan...

aww.. i miss my blog so much..
haha... pretty disappointed at first, cos new year i neither got to go escape nor go club. haha..
but its ok.. the chalet was pretty much fun..
due to Ian' s psychoing i went there till mid night till my dad fetched me to miss my whole clique of guys..
and we counted down in the arcade!!! woohoo..
while playing dance dance revolution !!!...haha..
and i did drink =P
was competing wif liang hong who can swallow the beers and bakadi faster..
ya as expected i was no hair for him .lol..
in the end, due to the effect of the alcohol, i was sleeping at wei jian' s sofa while everyone was playing..
actually i should have slept more. lost $4 when i woke up ...zz..

the next day which was new year, went back to chalet at around 7 and it was dam lot of ppl ... woooo..
it was kinda fun to play Mark' s card games which were pretty new and interesting to us =)
oh oh, and i din need to help out to enjoy my delicious bbq chicken wings ..wohoo..
anf of cos, my calsberg beer..
but i drank 1 cup plus and got really sianed of alcohol..
lols.. ya, i QUIT drinking officially =)
maybe i will only drink if tummy invite mi to =P

ok today was super ubber funnnnn ..cos
i got 4 free tickets to zoo ... wooho..
totally FOC.. cant feel better than that =P
tot mok could be our camera man and i became the gals camera man..
oh well..
cos my camera better ma ..geee..
i think it my 1st time to zoo ever since i came to singapore?
well, it was indeed kinda smelly lols..
but there are really many cute animals..
the seal and butterflies are just too attractive..
but the butterflies are v freaking..lols.
they tot my bag is a flower? omg.
so much for having a red bag..
actually i had the chance of kissing the seal....haha..
but i m not gonna give my 1st kiss to a MALE seal... .NO WAY... ^^
ok i m lazy to type.. let photos explain everything..woooo..



churcch service tml..
excited excited excited...