woot, should have updated yesterday, lols.
slack till today.. ok well..
yesterday, monday went to k lunch wif yi ting and yun jie..
we were planning to met since weeks ago, and my mum ould not get the zoo tickets yet so we still gootta wait..
thus we were thinking of meeting for other activity..
and k lunch was the final decision.. lols.
its hard to find a activity that satisfy some1 hoh.. =P
and i really should not have gone for k lunch, 1stly cos i cant sing when i just wake up..lols.
and i did not like the food there =X
was starving till 2 plus la..zz..
after that went to arcade to play dance dance revolution!!! woot..
din noe yun jie soo on , dares to play wif mi.. though she fails all the time.. LOL.
the game was proved to be a v good way to lose weight cos we were sweating like mad.
since it was still early, we went to watch bed time story after that..
ben, yong sheng, hui meng and liang hong came to join us..
and when i was buying the tickets, i got super pissed by their undicisiveness la.. ma de..
in the end they got to sit seperately.
after that was just some slacking wif the guys and end of day .. tired ....

today gotta wake up early.. and joined my class for the bday party for hanif and amira.
HAPPY BDAY =P
lols.. sorry for not being there for most of the clas gatherings.. i would try to go next time ok =P
and good bye to miza.. we may not meet her fo quite a long time till we get pw result i guess..
since shes quitting innova..
hmm
and tonight is super pissing la..
my whole family go MIA and none of them brought their mobile phones.. ..wth la.
and i did not bring my key..
for both my ah mas to go out at the same time, its either miracle or during diseaster..
after second thought, the highest possibility is that my dad drove every1 out to somewhere for a ride..
yes i was right...zz..
and i super hungry already lo..
tried to climb in from window.
and it was tightly locked.
i tried to search for key through the window and fell into a needle trap.. zz.
and i had to go coffee shop to wash my bloody hand.. yes its bloody..
good thing is i too kthe chance to chicky house and coped some psp games =P
tml is a big day..!!! woot..
escape theme park + drinking...

MOST IMPORTANTLY: WEI CHI' S BDAY!!
eh, is it really most impt? lols.. alright.
happy bday to lamer wei chi..
though noe u 5 years, u are as childish as the 1st day i saw u..
so ur true bday wish is: hope u get matured soon =X
i sinerely mean it..lols.. jia you ....

yoyo.. another sleepless night huh.. =.=
oh man.. ..lols.
anyway friday was pretty cool..
went to east coast park wif my ocip clique..
though some could not make it =(
but somehow it was pretty fun la..
and i was impressed by melvin' s stamina and leg strength..lols..yes.
cos i lost to him in bicycle race.. ..
after the beach was some random walking at the parkway parade..
its my 1st time there though..
due to my crave for playing dance dance revolution,
they all had to wait bloody long cos of the ppl playing in front of mi.
and i started the DDR chain LOL
every1 tried it in the end.. so funny la.
and our dancer shining could not play the most basic 1..LOL...
ok, ian' s one was much more funny... it as like a robot dance? LOL..
ok i shall stop laughing.. ^^


today' s original plan- morning meet tummy to og at stadium then go gym that is beside it to trian. go back home for lunch and meet mok for bball at buki batok .
and last night i was begging tummy to go sleep cos i knew she wount not wake up at 8..
and ya.. i was right =.=
not just her, i myself could not get up from bed also.. lols.
and so, our training was canceled since i did not wan to pang sei mok..
he will he sooo emo LOL..
but somehow, today' s bball was dam fun..
we got to hear about many useful theory..
and most importantly, we made a total of 6 friends.. LOL
next time go buki batok can call down alot ppl play together sia..
that place is just so lovely.
the people there are sooo frenly ^^.
ok. i m tired finaly.. =P
good night.


lol. gotta thank shining for trying to listen to my family prob.
but i guess i m not used to getting counselling from other ppl =P
i can only counsell ppl.. haha.
but still, deeply appreciated.
maybe i need not be so grateful.
after all, what are frens for ? =P
and pls.. i m not sissy =.=


father melvin' s family ..lol



i fell in love wif it at 1st sight ...awww..




our noob dancer of the day




see the serious face =P


there begins the robot dance!

wheeee... i wish u a merry christmas,
i wish u a merry christmas,
i wish u a merry christmas and happy new year.
haha..
it is so surprising how i spent my christmas this year =.= lols..
when i had decided to spendm y christmas emoing at home,
i found tummy gonna celebrate it at a pub.. hmm..
thinking i havent seen her for many months, i went to join her, and so i could join mok they all thawn at nut house, since all of them were at orchard.. omg.
its my 1st time drinking so much.. lols...
and i din ven intend to drink at all de lo..
but as they said, long time try once..hmm..then ok la..
and due to the donno wat promotion, we drank 1 whole bottle of eh, i donno how to spell..
whatever it is, due to that promotion we drank too much =.=
but the atmosphere there was brilliant.. omg..
the singer was great =)
but i felt dam sleepy afetr drinking so much, and decided to go back home and sleep.. lols.
mok was complaining to mi how much rubbish i was messaging him while i was drunk.. =P

today as invited by Brenda,
mok peied mi to visit her church event. lols.
and we din realise aljunied was geylang until we saw the road sign!!! omg..
we went around exploring the food and road since we were 1 hr early =.=
for the church event,
wa we can see the effort the performers put in la..
and the kids wif candles are sooo cute =P
but mok was keep irriting mi wif his jokes la.. lols.. kao..
hope i din make the christians feel i was laughing at them sia..
and it was quite ok except that got a aug mo speak dam long... omg..
if he speak is ok la, just that he repeats alot..lols..
but he is a v highly respected man, so maybe i shall just learn to appreciate his presence ba =)

after that mok got informed that he was pangseied by li ling' s fren LOL
and we went to orchard to visit tummy' s workplace..
and, it was another 2 hrs of wait .. =P
we dicided not to go anywhere since we did not wan to spend much $.
and so, somehow i was invited by her parents to go her house and chat.. lols.
ok la, since its just nice the timing for xiao niang re, went there to watch tv..
and her bro kent looks exactly the same like 2 yrs ago la =.=
omg.. now he is gonna be sec 3 leh.lols.
so small size, better don get bullied ah..
and the lazy tummy asked her cousin living in the same block to bring down drink for mi sia..
and i havent see her move 1 cm away from the sofa once she reached home =.=
tummy ah tummy..
if u don exercise mroe now, next time u become sumo size i also cant help u le..
alright. now i m gotta do some stuffs for nma...ahh...

woo. another week of laziness.. lols..
i shall start from the begining =.=
went to Buki batok to bball last week after a long lag of not going there..
lols.. everytime we go can m ake new fren sia, the ppl there dam steady.
ok introducing our new fren- hong guang, who also p lays dota..dota + bball = very easy to communicate..
then the bball court light wasnt switched on, =.=
so we all had to walk around west mall looking for Usavich plush toy =P

hmm, friday went for steamboat to celebrate DOD' s birthday..
wonder how he got this nick..and he brougnt sans whom i played dota wif man many times then i realsied he is already 24yrs old.. lols.
and he mix wif us kids =X
cool huh..

sat went to bball at chen sang and we saw a few kids selling water melon for the cafe at the cc.. LOL...
i ke lian them and bought 2 pieces and got addicted to buy like 5 more omg..
my stomach was exploding..
somehow i started the chain and the whole bball court was eating water melons.. LOL
and sunday night we decided to thawn at hua nsheng house to play left for dead4, which was rcently discovered to be a very fun game =P
and only to realise that our laptops could not support sucha an advanced game =.=
dam sianed..
when i tried to sleep at 6am, i got squeezed by the fat mok, hui mi n and huan sheng, to have only 1/10 of the bed la..zz.
and mornign i still got to go sku for NMA meeting.. omg..
so dead..
oh ya, afetrnoon met melvin and Ian for movie- YES MAN..
yes.. that movie is simply brilliant =)
i must thank ian, cos usually i don watch aug mo comedy if no 1 invite mi de...
esp afetr i watched meet the spartans, i kinda have bad impression over american humor.. lols..
but that show is super super nice ..
whee..
after that i m supposed to meetm ok de, and they did not wan to go home so early..
and so, for the 1st time, they joined us for bball lols.
but i could feel the sianed aura from ian..lols..ok la, he was trying his best..
and i was surprised that melvin could run so fast..
he din look that sporty lols.
ok, at n ight i fell asleep at 10pm for obvious reason =)

now its a brand new day...

JUST SAY YES ....LOL

walao. ..
this is dam sianed..
every little detail could make mi think so much =.=
though it may be true that humans are made that way,
when they stop thinking means they are dead.
but then i really hate the feeling.
i hate not knowing.
i hate guessing..
but i guess, since i cant do anything about it, maybe i should concentrate on the things i could.
since i promised to change myself.
maybe i should start more practical things to change myself.
plans for gym, plans for training, buying new clothes, change my sloppiness, change my thinking habits... lols.
and start studying =.=
omg this is deadly..
i donno if i can actually maintain it but i gotta keep going..lols.
or else i wont have gut to face her. ..
not till i can feel the confidence....
aw... when can i have that confidence?
who should i ask? hm..
maybe i do need a belief.
some fren says i should only join church after A levels..
but if i really believe in it, why would i fear of time constrain due to A level.
yup..
sometimes u really cant talk to any1 about somethings,
sometimes people' s advices would only irritate you.
maybe,
the best fren i could have, the best person to talk to, is god.
when u believe in something, it would be the something.
now i would learn to believe.
i would believe in my abilities, believe in my determination.
1 more year and i would go ns.
1 yr is all i have got.
and i believe, i could give her the best care.
and i believe i would wait for her to see my heart.
i believe, i could be a best fren of her even if we cant be together.
all the beliefs, shall start wif my believe i can achieve my plans for change,
i can achieve it.
i can maintain them. .. yes i can..
and i believe, i would be able to face her wif confidence...
soon.....
lols.. just a little belief could really bring encouragement to oneself....
i shall keep that belief =)

yoyo... its been long since i last updated..
last week went fot ocip sentosa outing..lols.
ahhh, actually i kinda dislike beach activity cos i hate the sun! =X
but lelia was organiser so no matter wat i had to show my face =)
was listening to music at t he shade lols..
and decided to leave earlier to rest at home. and suddenly it poured super heavily just after i went into the sky train..woohoo.
i din have the chance to get in touch wif rain drops.. lols.

after that was many days of arcade plus bball.
went wif ben and mok to woodlands to find courts, and shun bian went to time zone.
and saw 2 pri sku or maybe younger gals who can dance nx super well la..omg..
LOL.. ben was amazed by them.. (pictures below)

today is mok bday!!! .. i lazy say hapy bday again. haha.
yesterday thanx to his idea we all go thawn again.
ok not his idea, cos of hui min' s audition couple wanna thawn,
then all of them bloody decided to thawn.
and at first wan to sentosa beach thawn de lo..
night beach is sooo cool and peaceful..
and morning can str8 go dim sum eat..
and thnx to mok' s mum, wtf, keep kp him, make him no mood to go so far..
and we had to slack around amk area ..
and he din let mi leave till 5 plus when buses starts.. ma de..
and in the end we all overspelt and could not go for dim sum buffle... dots.
next them then =X
later gonna force mok to watch some movies..
i m longing for movies since last month..zz



LET THE PICTURES DO THE TALKING

ahh.....
i m full of injuries. lols.
but i cant describe how contented i feel about those injuries. =P
yesterday went to buki batok AGAIN...
and this time not just wif mok,
we have got 2 pros joining us, lols.. de liang and jia xian..
yeah..
but we had a hard time getting used to each other' s style lols.
no matter what teamwork is not easy to produce.
the most important thing i like about bballing at buki batok is the growth i could feel.
almost every1 there are shooters so we cant just slack and let thm shoot like in amk.
and i have got to play undercourt instead of slacking outside and ait for passes.. lols.
yup, thats why today play wif huan sheng at amk,
he actually said i got improvement.. =P
of cos la, buki batok and amk is 1 sky 1 ground ok..
and yeah, holiday life have been passing quite fast sia..
and no surprises, no differences, cos its all bball.
but yet bballing has become part of my life again,
cos i m deeply enjoying it ^^

oh maybe there is some surprise, cos i saw xiao hui at chen sang today.. lols.
its kinda easy to notice her wif her size =X
though i was not wearing my specs... LOL
no offence =P
but undoubltly she is v pro la, MVP cannot fake de.. lols.
oh well, if any1 really bored at home,
go watch 2 drama series.
cos they are super super funny.. =P
"hot shot" and "it started with a kiss"..
watch them especially when ur mood is down..
u will smile unknowningly =)


oh man, oh man.
i still need time to adjust myself ..
sooo scary..

waa.. siao.. its been long since i wake up at this kind of late hour.
lols..yesterday my house became the pearl harbour.
the amount of qurreling was dam cool.
can see them 1 by 1 maddening. =.=
and it all started wif my bro making my ah ma to fall and injured her leg.
aiya, i don care le la. =.=
this kind of family, i m determined to move out as soon as i can le.
shall not bother about it.
everyday come tell mi he gonna kill my mum and suicide.
wtf la.
a whole family of nuts,
they wanna drive mi nuts too?
fuck off la...

i m strong =)

this time i din talk to the person i wan to talk to the most when i m troubled.
and slowly i will be more and more indepedent.
i will learn to cook myself.
i will wash my own clothes.
i will leave this place..



ok i m glad i went to buki batok again yesterday.
though this time only mi and mok went,
it was really fun.
not just about the skillful players there,
they are all very frenly.
and i actually saw zu peng.
the MI boy who also went for the 9.58 dj competition =P
omg the world is so small.
and of cos, we made new frens at Buki Batok.
and i suddenly realised amk is so cmi.. lols..
these few days i guess i wont be able to eat at home.

oh man..
i wan my new phone soon.
when i get t, i swear i m gonna spam the camera wif lots of photos.. woohoo.

phew..
finally got time to siti n front of com man..
yesterday got psychoed to buki batok again for bball ..lols.
ok la, this time got strength to play properly la.
it was actually quite fun la.
the people there got really high standard.
but its really tooo far!! =.=
then night time went to huan sheng house to thawn wif them.. lols.
it was super squeezy la.
thnx to mok ah,
snatch the bed so fast..
i played wif ben till 6am, then chased him down then got place to sleep =.=
omg la.
i m not gonna thawn in the next 6 months.. lols.
v the body damaging... =.-'

Today morning morning went home to sleep. lols.
my sleep avoided a qurral wif my mum =P
and when i woke up and left for bball they were all sleeping... woohoo..
but it started raining dam soon after i reach chen sang.. aw.
then we went to tpy to explore the food.
called wei chi down to be our tour guide and end up we could only eat at air con place.
zzz... cannot stand gals.
but arcading was fun lols.
mok was trying hard to stop mi from winning daytona,
to an extend that he reversed just to knock mi down.. lols.
too bad =P
i cant believe we played more than 4 games at daytona.. lols.
woo and we saw the flowerish shop.. and the flowers here is so much dam expensive compared to vietnam la omg..
12 times more ex!!! =.=
lols..ok la.. this is singapore..
oh man, i m finally changing phone line and phone..
and i saw my red phone =P
here i come my new red phone =P







oh, bad attepmt to avoid my camera =P

wa.. i am really very lazy.. zz.
so sorry my dear blog.. =X
oh man this week like played pool 3 times already.
LOL..
monday wif mel and ian,
tuesday wif kk, fion and yu hui..
today wif chen hui and wen yuan!!!!

oh man, for yesterday and today,
i was going crazy over nma la =.=
ok la, lelia is suffering more.. LOLs
i was supposed to do social networking proposal wif her yesterday, =.=
and went blue studio around noon to meet her to do it.
and it dawned on mi that they needa finish their video editing 1st..lols.
ok la, i was dam free la.. so i shall not complain ..
and they were doing the video for open house.. omg.
got 1 video, after editing it looks like every1 is walking backwards.. LOL
and another 1, yu hui act as ghost de.. omg..
my stomach can explode if i were to watch again.
then till 5 pm they finally finished the videos, cos they spent 1 hr like that doing the credits? LOL..
finally could do the proposal, so we took the key for IT lab and went in.
and somehow, we found the badge machines,
and being greatly amazed and attracted to it,
we spent the whole time testing out the machines making badges for frens =P
the proposal? next time ba =X

today leh, worse.
8 30 we all have to go sku.
and it involves like 12 excos? eh i hope i din count wrong.
and i was feeling dam guilty that i felt i would reach sku 10 min late.
so did not buy breakfast from mac and rushed to sku.
Yes, i made it to sku at 8 33 and only to be informed that Huda will be late herself.
and she would only reach at 9 =.=
haiz.. so much for being punchual. zzz
there goes my breakfast.
and then chen hui bloody reach singapore only at 12 plus when the meeting finished at before 11.
wa piang eh.
i had to float cwp to wait for him la.zzz
and just ncie saw lelia and val again at popular book store ..LOL
but i still had to wait 20 min after they both gone before chen hui reached cwp.
omg. la.
i hate being a floater. feel like a loner sia.. lols.
ok la. after that was pretty fun.

we went to amk to meet wen yuan for pool. woohoo..
i only lost once to chen hui and on all the rest matches lo. wohoho.
not like tues, kana bully by kk they all..z.
and mok and ben actually came to arcade to find us after that..
ya , and eat my arcade card value..zz..
after long decision, finally every1 agreed to watch the movie- quarantine =.=
and it is a super crappy show la.
i bet every1 feels giddy after watching la. walao eh.
its worse than clover field.
and the show is purely gore.
blood and more blood. and it looks like house of the dead LOL
mok only enjoyed the part when every zombie chased after the main characters..
omg la. wen yuan was listening to mp3 while watching la =.=
how i wish there could be a higher standard horror show to watch..yawn.
the worse part is that i got cheated to buy a $3.10, 500 ml soft drink.. omg la.
pls let mi be smarter..
and also rid my clumsiness...zz.

oh man, my torture was not over after that.. lols.
got psychoed by mok to go all the way to bukit batok bball court to play.
and i was almost fainting due to the lack of sleep la.
of cos, he was complain how off form i was today..lols.
like i care la.
and i actually fell asleep on the way back.. wow.
since the vietnam trip,
i am becoming more and more like pigs sia.
now i could sleep anywhere and everywhere huh...=.=






brothers =P

















i shall just be myself
and treat you like i always wanted.
cos it seems avoiding the truth,
is deceiving my feel.

but before that,
i shall take some time to be rdy. =)
all i wished, is to see u happy happy =P
if i will still seem scary scary,
ops, then i will leave leave ^^

oh man..
i am utterly lazy to post about vietnam.. lols.
9 days 8 night =.=
how am i going to finish every detail huh..
hm.. maybe i will do that tml =P
i shall just blog about my return.. wooo.
actually i could not wait to come back..
oh man.. i miss my bro =P
and he actually went to airport wif my mum to fetch mi home woohoo..
he is just too smart to be a 2 yr old kid.. aw..
and the same day i returned mok and hui min came to thawn at my house cos huan sheng pang seied them..lols..
i m v kind liao lo, let u all come.. still blame mi for sleeping early =.=
wa piang eh.. 9 days who not tired..

sat no need say, as promsied to myself, whole day bball!!! ^^
sunday was drama day..
cos the bloody mok go eat sushi wif hui min they all
finished the whole series of hot shot.. woot.. and it makes mi wan to play ball more =P
never give up, concentrate. hmm.
but so sorry, i have no time to invest on you, my dear bball.. haha..
gotta chiong my econs, lit and piano!!!
omg so long nv practice.. and i forgot 2 songs =.=
our of my pathetic 6 songs i forgot 2..yawn.
and my basic is back from worse to worse worse.. lols.

Today- monday. original plan- movie wif wei chi then meet mel and ian for pool. =.=
and pang seied by wei chi huh.. lols.
ok la.. i noe u not feeling well la.
shall not joke about it..
ate my fav kfc when ian came. and there we go, set off towards hub and we actually saw san shun there.. thats when i realised the whole of dummie' s secondary clique gonna celebrate someone' s bday at k box, which is next to k pool.. lols.
yup.. mel and his bro came at 2 plus and we played pool till almost 5.. lols.
shit sia.. i m getting addicted to pool.
and i saw hui min ben and liang hong at the pool place =.=
those holiday nth to do de..
LOL..
needed ben to bring mi to cut my hair,
so joined them at arcade 1st.
and we actually played for almost 20min wif 50 cents cos got 1 arcade machine gives 9 credits wif each tab.. lols.
wth sia..
i doubt any1 would go report to the stuff about this technical error.. lols.
and they are really those kind don wan go home de sia..
keep drag..
and then as for my hair, lols.
i got cheated again =.=
i wonder why ppl just don understand the words" don cut short, just trim"
nvm its too late to regret.
she actualy cut a slope at the back side of my hair..
wow.. its been like 5 years since i cut slope? lols...
i m truely amazed by the aunty' s comprehension and boldness.
must give credit to her bravery.
fine. ppl say i look like ah beng ma, i shall be NERD!!! zzzz
and to whoever saying i am GAY cos of my EARHOLES,
I AM CLOSING THEM UP.. yes..
stop the crap gay thing... its fashion anyway..
and its not beng!!! thats sterotype.. zz
nvm, it will be none of my business soon.








I guess i am helpless,
but don worry,
i do not want you to have another thing to be troubled about.
it already pains mi when i see ur post about him.
but this time, not cos of jealousy,
but cos of the pain u suffered over him.
that slash in my heart almost shed my tears upon ur words for him.
fortunately you are okay now,
i hope i guessed it right this time.
i always tend not to believe people when they say they are okay,
especially you.
but this time i did not.
maybe its cos i knew i cant make u say it even if its not true.
let mi just hope.
and if i m gonna promise anything in the future,
i would promise that i wont promsie anything.
promises are so powerless, worthless, useless nowadays.
i bet you are tired of them too.
and, i noe,
you will never accept me.
i m contented enough when you talk to me.
when i can take care of you in the dark.
i wont do that for reason,
i wont do that to impress you.
cos already noe you wont accept mi.
and we are impossible due to the time, esp for jc 2 when army times are near.
but i don need a reason..
if there is, that is to see your smile every time i see you.

at least,

i don have to feel immoral this time.
that is why,
the only way my wind will stop,
is when you find ur new partner.
but, i guess u have the right to noe,
all this i say, does not mean i would give up.
but i wont set my goal to be getting your heart.
i wan you to find ur heart, but before that,
let mi share my happiness and warmth with you.
when i still have the ability to do so.