its been a week before i update sia.. =.=

these week i guess its been entertaining enough.

thurs went to watch movie wi fhuan sheng, at 1st we bought the tickets for deception..

when go in 5 min and we realised its totally a porn show wif no plot at all ..wtf..

then we hop over to watch the hulk lols.. though its second time i watch, its still better than deception =.=

then friday watched wanted, a v bloody and "fuck" show which everyone in the show cursed wif fuck for more than 3 times..lols.. watched wif my 4-6 ppl..

so sorry i din go for their dinner. =P

oh the video, today went to k box wif yun jie..

wanted to go k box for so dam bloody long la..

cos scared i get cough again then must wait another month. and today i sing many songs that previously i couldnt reach the pitch sia.. omg so happy..

then suddenly donno how the idea of taking video come out lols.. but by the time we take the video i already sing till no voice le ..zz.. got a sms ring tone somemore..lols....kinda lazy re record =P

actually got another clip is her singing.. lols.. i m still deciding whether to sabo her wif her clip.. well, mine is put there for entertainment, for my friends who visit my blog ba =P

somethings need not words to explain.

phew.. 2nd day os sku today..
no matter wat. sku is s till boring..lols.
huan sheng came back last sat, saw him on sun.
when waiting for him to come down wi chicky.we were still picturing some style man spiking hair, salk down coolly. =.=
in the end, its like gotten worse..lols.
disgusting specs, disgusting smile and disgusting hair!!!
he dyed his hair purple =.= though its suppoed to be red.. omg. cannt describe the weirdness.lols.
went to his aunt house play piano a while =P and went to cc to meet mok for bball wif him..
not bad sia, got alot pros there. play till dam song.
finally we got enough people to form our own team..wheee..

we got back some of the results..ah.
befoe we got them, it was so dam scary.
heard that only 20% passed econs. and english lit and chinese lit are also GG subjects..
LOLs.
guess the result for mi is quite encouraging.
passed lit and econs, the 2 mist diff subjects..
but failed chinese lit by 2 marks.. kao..
my compo out of point. dam sad.
the question is not clear lo.. =.=
hopeflly add CA marks can pass ba..
thursday will get back maths and gp ba.
i noe for maths i hopeless, thats why i m atteding a useless tuition also..
and if i don score well for gp, i will never ever study gp again. cos i prepared dam well for gp already..
aww...huan sheng helped mi bought the miracle seeds from china. lols. time to test its effect. ^^
HW, HW, HW time....

i never knew i was so fragile.
i don like my life.
i don like my frens.
i don like my sku.
i don like my home.
i don like my parents.
i don like studying.
i don like my room.
i don like my unhealthy body.
i realy cant find any meaning to this pathetic life.
1st- i am a fucking unlucky 1, good luck never come to mi. NEVER.
2nd- i realised i have some fucker frens that are simply so dam xia lan.
3rdly- i tried hard enough but i cant get used to jc life. i cant stand being the only chinese. its too hard for mi. i cant stand my irritating teachers and nagging mum about skuwork. i cant stand this certificate world, reason is nth compared to an mc. they don care whatever shit reason u have, they jus t wan to see an mc. wtf is the theory of mc?
4th- my eye floaters are permenant. thnx to my father' s genes. thnx ah..
5th- i am never energitic again, always feel strengthless and always sick wif lame illness like cough and flu. that bloody specialist medicine dont help a bit.
6th- my friends are so dam enjoying poly life. everything is so stressless. but why is jc such a torture.
7th- my house is a fucking noisy and naggy place wif 2 ah mas, mother, and 1 insane father, and a 2 yr bro whom i can never ask him to shut.
how am i going to study or practice piano. when i cant even sleep well since not only my bro scream, and so does my ah ma and my father. and my mum? just knock the door and wake mi up from my pricious dreams not feeling slightest guilt.

and unlucky things just happen 1 by 1, again and again. getting super worse recently.its really fucked up.
i guess, no matter how positive you are, when bad things accumulates, it is still threatening..
yes..

and i am doing a project on taking things for granted, but i am sorry. i really cant stand it. there may be ppl worse than mi. but all my frens are better than mi. my existence only causes pain to myself.. ahh fuck it... maybe i should quit sku and just go ns... fucking hell..

woo... after days of slacking, i shall update =)
yesterday night went to atch night movie wif kenneth..
and the hulk is so super nice!!! woo....
then today went to 4-6 outing!!
at causeway point and we ate seoul garden..
its been soooo long since i last eaten seoul garden la.
cos amk de close down le..lols..
the food was so dam nice..
omg i htink i ate 5 kg of beef and 8 scoops of ice cream =P
worth $20 le right!










i want to the clouds around you
let not the dominating ray scrach your lovely face

i want to be your windbreaker
let not the sollen winds freeze your heart

i want to be your moon
let not darkness engulf you even in the night

i wan to be your ear
let not loneliness attack you even in your dream

i shalt walk to any girl when them in need.
i am always with you even if you need not.

what only i wish for,
is get you hold of my expanding heart of ebullition love
and lean on me with all your weight of life.

Part 1

Instructions:
Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chatbox that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have a blessing.

another 1 that i owe =.= thnx yun jie for the tag..

1)At what age do u wish to marry?
- 26.
2)What you want the most now?
good result and health

3)Who is the person you trust the most?
- huan sheng, chee kuan,

4)Do you think you have enough confidence?
- now? yes.

5)If you have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- i wan to be a musical genius. lols.

6)Ever crushed on anyone?
- yes.

7)What is your goal for this year?
- good result

8)Do you believe in eternity love?
- i think nth is impossible. but i doubt i will have 1

9)Have you broke someone heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
- yes. =X

10)What feeling do you love the most?
- holding my love' s hand. though only experienced it once. lols.

11)What feeling do you hate the most?
- anger. it cause mi to make alot wrong moves..

12)Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
- yes.

13)Do you believe in God?
- i tink so.

14)What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
-a reason to live on.

15)Who do you hope to be always there for you?
- my best friends and my lvoer if i have 1.

16)Whose your best friend?
- huan sheng, chee kuan, mok, kenneth?

17)Who cares for you the most?
- i think parents.

18)Which date you like the most?
- valentine' s day. the day is filled with romance.

19)Do you believe there is fate and its destined or it is the path u chose.
- both equal. sometiems wat u choose determines your fate.

20)Do you believe in love at first sight?
- yes.. i guess..


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Part 2

Starting time: 2.04am
Name: hongyu
Sister: -
Brother: -hongli
Shoe size: 11
Height: 183cm
Where you live: ang mo kio

Favorite drinks?
~ soft drinks, milo, some fruit juices.
Favorite breakfast?
~ no fav.
Broken someone's heart?
~ yes.
Fell off your chair?
~ yes.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call?
~ eh, forgot if got wait for phone, but got wait for sms reply. and the feeling sux.
Saved e-mails?
~ no.. saved sms..
What is your room like?
~ pink and small.
What’s right beside you?
~ my pillow
What is the last thing you ate?
~ cough medicine..zz..
Ever had chicken pox?
~ nope.
Sore throat?
~ yes, now..
Stitches?
~ no.
Broken nose?
~ no.
Like picnics?
~ depends on who i go with.
Who was the last person you danced with?
~ a random partner chosen at latin dance class.. a terrible experience.lol.
Last made you smile?
~ thinking of the terrible dance.
You last yell at?
~ my mum? lols.. yell till sian le..
Today,
Did you talk to someone you like?
~ no.. lols.. no chance today.
Kiss anyone?
~ no.
Get sick?
~ yes. cough and sore throat.
Talked to an ex?
~ no.
Miss someone?
~ yes.
Eat?
~ yes =.=
Best feeling in the world?
~ i managed to download a video of some1 plaing canon in d on piano from youtube.
Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
~ not now... i used to have a stuffed gorilla. its lost in china T-T
What's under your bed?
~ floor..
Who do you really hate?
~ no 1.
What time is it now?
~ 2.11 am

Randoms :
Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now?
~ yes.
Q: Do you have any siblings?
~ yes.
Q: Do you want children?
~ half half..
Q: Do you smile often?
~ i laugh alot.
Q: Do you like your handwriting?
~ no..it sux.
Q: Are your toenails painted?
~ no..=.=
Q: Who's bed other than yours would you rather sleep in?
~ any soft bed.
Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
~ i m half naked.. =.=
Q: What were you doing at 7pm yesterday?
~ playing at lan shop with mok.
Q: I can't wait till?
~ ns is over.. zzz
Q: When did you cry last?
~ while watching some show ba.. too emotional le. =.=
Q: Are you a friendly person?
~ if i m moody, emoing, or i have inspiration for a poem, i wont tlak to any1 for whole day.
Q: Do you have any pets?
~ used to. it died..................................my bobo....................
Q: Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
~ some where in singapore..
Q: Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?
~ eh, my dance partner? noo way... =.=
Q: Do you sleep with the TV on?
~ i don really watch tv.
Q: What are you doing right now?
~ this crap thing.
Q: Have you ever crawled through a window?
~ yes.
Q: Can you handle the truth?
~ yes.
Q: Are you too forgiving?
~ yes.
Q: Are you closer to your mother or father?
~ none. =.= they are more childish than i do.. zz
Q: Who was the last person you cried in front of?
~ i don cry in front of any1.. maybe long ago my parents..
Q: How many people can you say you've really loved?
~ 2. maybe 3..if my pri sku 1 i counted..
Q: Do you eat healthy?
~ no. i eat alot fastfood.
Q: Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?
~ in my past blog post, yes.
Q: Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?
~ yes. when she tell mi the truth that broke my heart =)
Q: How often do you go to church?
~ went a few times in my life cos of friends...
Q: If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?
~ ido n really go to ppl, usually is either listen to sad music or talk to whoever online. if really have to find ppl, maybe yi ting, yunjie, joanna, xmm, previously "stranger" .. sadly none of any guy frens noes how to console friends.
Q: Are you loud or quiet most of the time?
~ quiet. cos all my friends talk alot. i have no choice but to listen.
Q: Are you confident?
~ yes.

Now, to tag people.
jie ling.
stephanie
yiting
wenyuan
wenjuan
olivia
zi yun
joanna

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

tagged by who i forget le. think i owe this post v long le. now betetr pay the debt..zz..later still got another 1 =.=

if your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?
emo wif my piano, try to learn 1 super nice piano song and play for her as seperation gift and cool cool de walk off..

if you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
i wan a real and romantic relationship =P, i wan to master piano, i wan to be successful in life, i wan freedom, health... =.= i am too greedy.

what will your dream wedding to be like?
hmm.. at big hotel, or osmewhere i have nv been too, wif romantic scenery.

are you confused of what lies ahead of you?
a little bit..

what's your ideal lover like?
i wont ask for too much, average looking and gentle. i hope she rely on me and i will protect her =)

which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved ba..

how long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
till i find its too dumb to continue waiting, or the person is not worth waiting.

if the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
wait for them to break? lols. if before they break i don feel like waiting then forget it.

is there anything that makes you unhappy these days?
not much.

is being tagged fun?
not really fun. it just makes mi feel my friends are around mi.

how do you see yourself in ten years time?
not sure wat this question mean.

who are currently most important people to you?
some best friends, my family.

what kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
evil

would you rather to be single and rich or married but poor?
eh.v hard to decide.. i don wish my wife to suffer wif mi, so maybe single and rich.

what's the first thing you do every morning?
off my alarm clock, go toilet, look for my didi.

would you give all in a relationship?
maybe. if i really like her and her character is good enough to make mi feel worth it. i will.

if you fall in love with two person simultaneously, who would you pick?
the 1 that i feel more suitable for mi.

what type of friends do you like?
not calculative and yi4 qi4 type.

if given the chance to turn back time, will you?
yes.

what is the last thing you would do before you die?
give my love a kiss.

oh ya, found this video..
this 6 yr old gal can play the canon i wanna learn sia..zz...
LOL..
i am so in loved wif canon..

play it for mi and i will say yes! =P

hmm. cannot escape the guiltiness for not updating my dear blog.
last night have been chionging maple, a private server that is so dam cool.
exp and money x 1000 lols.. all skills maxed once u reach the level for the job.. omg..
i chionged 5 hours only hit 4th job le..lols..
then got npcs that help u tele port to any map. no need wait so long on ship le ^^
hmm..

i shall start from thursday. ^^
finally went to wanglu' s house for piano lesson liao.omg..
and i gotta learn a happy bday song in 1 day, so that i could help the j2s play it for some ppl' s bday. then i got dam stressed la..lols.
her piano is finally fixed =.=
so my rest time she had to entertain mi wif nice melodies.. wheee..
when can i ever reach her skill standard =.=
maybe never..............ahhh.
then went to watch nania wif kenneth!
he managed to reach on time lol..
finally i get to watch a complete movie..
hm. the movie is very very NICE!!
i gotta watch it second time..
its sooo touching..hmm..

Fri! 3 important events happenedon the same day.
i shall say the good ones 1st.
morning went for exco meeting.
it was then we are told it would be the final round of trial for the positions in exco.
but it was merely games..and we recommend each other de thing..hmm..ya..
then after that.........................
FIMLING!!!
we went all the way to buki batok de bball court to film la..omg..
we filmed till 10 pm!!! omg.
took dam lots of photos.. and had l ots of fun..
and i think i was being super gay .. lols..
shall nto say why ..wahaha..
thnx to our ng king ah, repeat 1 scene so long =.=
though there wasnt enough time to film my part, but its just so fun just to be there to help..hehehe..
my next post shall be lots of photos..

well the 3rd and last impt thing..zz..
my mum was pregnant again..
hm..
i din realy wish to have another sibling at 1st.
its so much burden already..
now that my hosue got 2 ah mas, my didi, my parents and i.
and i love peace.
and quietness, sometimes..
i cant imagine my didi and the new baby fighting, the noise..ahhh
but well, it was gotten rid off on fri.
the doc said it wasnt a healthy one..hmm
but when i heard that, my mood just sinked..
its a life after all..
its my sibling after all..
ok nvm.... shall stop it..
time for photos..