wooo.. =.=
i am so liikingforward to tml..
exco meeting!!!
i shall see if my frens all got in =)
hmm.
tusday went to do the 1st filming of 2 scenes..
and my "friend" in the script pang sei us =.=
then end up they called a gal to substitute..
then it become like so weird la..lols.
ask mi to bang the locker and act suepr angry in front of a gal de "friend" is so unnatural =.=
ahh...
then night time went for the dance class..
jia yaun and my partner din come..
then we were paired up wif some tai gals..
zz.. mine got super sweaty palm la..
and they are super weird, i shall not say why..lols..
and i managed to make jia yuan tell mi his dream gal..
shit sia, but i donno who that is.
gotta find out...
later going piano lesson soon..
like finally =.=
then, hopefully, will get to watch nania!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i have been waiting for it..woosh...
kenneth ah kenneth...
why go ur club tingi.....
nvm. got ppl pei mi watch can le..
gotta buy ticket now le, i wan good seats =)

omg.. its been such a long time before i update..

woo....
thanks so much YI TING.
wasted 1 whole hour on mi teaching those maths questions =)
though its cos i learn very fast and efficiently.
wahaha..
at least i feel confident for tml' s test le...
THANX again...

My Day Is Saved By Yi Ting....
as good fren must help 1 another ma ^^
wohoooooohooooooo..
here i come, Maths! .
wooohooohoooo.............

just searched out alot burnt discs from yearsago and found this 2 stupid video..

whahahaa...dam funny

ahhh..
cant take it sia.
the news.
report about them day by day.
increasing the no. of deaths,
unvealing stories by stories.
such natural diseasters.
maybe really, natural diseasters will bring out the humanity from ppl.
its just so touching when u see how the ppl are being saved.
how the police forces worked so hard wif tears rolling down,
stuggling against time, saving each and every second they could,
so that more people could be saved from that hellish place.
why arent mi a gal.
if i am a gal, would be able to cry out loud in front of anyone else.
but i cant.
i gotta save that little bit of pride within mi.
lets all pray for those people who are still trapped inside the collapsed buildings,
please give them the last bit of light of hope.
i am sure they will appreciate life so much better.. pls..

wow.. the 3rd holiay..
its a long weekend =)
but i cant find much mood sto study..
most most can only squeeze 2 hrs to study sia.
GG....
but managed to learn the piano piece "zao3 cao1"
wheeee..
so in love wif piano...wahahahaha.. at leats now can learn 5 times faster than 5 months ago =.=
and as for the xi an educational trip..
omg i heard that the earthquake will reach xi an soon.! ehhhh...
LOL...
well, but it wont stop mi from going there =)
only those who escaped death will appreciate the meaning of life.
actually i am mentally prepared and anticipating a diseaster to happen to mi..
maybe that would give mi more inspiration and open up my sensitivity.
omg. i sound so much like a lit person =.=
but true, literature is fun.
it taught mi to look at things wif such unique angle and perspective.
and it teaches mi all the bullshitology ..
hopefully i can enjoy the trip =)

oh well.
i wonder why.
why is it that recently so many people want to find my trouble.
i really don wan to qurral.
i don like qurraling.
but then why is it that i am keep trapped into crappy situations.
i noe my temper these few days is not good.. maybe..
i noe i cant always blame other people..
but seriously, i wan peace..
really peace... thanks..

i have just heard about the news,
the end of world in 2011..
4 more years..
and everything, my dream, my family, my friends, my body..
all will be crushed into ashes.
i like the saying " man that afraid of death, are those with regrets"
i ask myself, do i have regret?
the biggest regret i have is i donno what regret i have.. haha..
maybe there are some, maybe alot..
man is greedy..
i want a real and steady and romantic relationship..
even if it cant last, i wan a real one..

i wan to be a good hiphop dancer.
i wan claps when i dance to people..

i wan to learn to sing,
i wan to uncloud my lover' s eyes with my voice.

i wan to master piano.
i wan to play those very fast and nice songs to my loved ones.

i wan to be a teacher for a while.
relief teacher is okay.
i wan to teach my students my own way..

i wan to set up my own company.
i wan to prove to my family i am able to do it.

i wan to act in a film or television series..
i wan to try the feeling of being a real dj.

i wan to win a competition.
at least one..

can i?

2 months. and the 1st time i meet you in 2 months is because of such a reason.
you said i could make you not cry?
but by?
yes.
anyone could.
if they have money.
for these 4 years.
if all you need is not emotional compensation.
if that is the way to make you feel happier.
i think i have paid back enough.
happiness is not supposed to be bought.
so long.
not until i have my own work, i earn my own money.
even as frens i would not be able to make you happy.
thus that would be the final time,
before we all turn into adults.
i wan to say again.
you were once,
deeply loved,
by a nerdy boy.
so long,
my one and only 1st love..
let' s meet again after 10 years....

wth la.. everyday s fucked up..
friday went to the xi an trip guide then realise like got 28 malays and only 12 chinese going there?!!!!
WTF!!! we have to eat halah!!! aahhhhhhhhh...
how come they wan go china de..=(
we still need to do journal everyday in english..
everyday will be english and english.. wtf la..
this is not the same as wat i thought at all la.
they plan everything for us..
we are not allowed to bring anything entertaining..zzzz..
are we going to jail?
i am utterly sorry..
i am not racist or wat but i am really seriously tired of this!!
they say the chinese will be splitted up and some will be the single 1 in the group..
wtf la.
why everything must split mi out 1..
i am the only chinese in my class.
in nma camp i was alone in the group that i din noe any1 inside..
why am i always seperated!!!!
ever since i come to this sku, i have been a loner enough le right!
i eat alone, do hw alone. go home alone come sku alone..
sit alone. rest alone...
I AM ALREADY SO ALONE!
thats not like mi at all.. TOTALLY!
haiz..
forget it then..
then for nma group..
i was once told that i can be in jia yuan's group la.. =(
then in the end change back..
if you wan to take my things away again and again..
pls, just don give mi those things..
i don wan the feeling of losing anything..
well. due to this kind of mood, i was much more zi4 pi4 these few days... yes..
i shall not care whether i am rude or wat..
i really don have the mood to socialise nor talk..
give mi peace and i will be grateful.

due to that bloody mok bringing 10 ppl!!! to my house to thawn, i dib really have a good sleep la..yawn..
and made mi lost $2 in playing black jack..lols..
sian diao..
all those frens in poly are enjoying like that.....................
is it because i am simply not easily satisfied?
but i am really not happy wif this sku la..haiz..
and my teachers..
and my subject combi..
i simply have no confidence at all in passing my lit and econs..
and i realised NMA got really lots of retainees..
its kind of worrying..
ok its not my style to worry about studies.. =.=
then today leh, play bball.
re injured the thumb i injured during the NMA camp..zz.
then suay suay played wif some losers....yawn..
shall not think about it..
spoils my mood...
i shall do my projects now...haiz...

my life, the worryingless storeline,
has been shattered to this nightmaring type.
the day, the afternoon, the evening, the night.
neither of which is now belong to mine.
the powerlessness of light,
the soundless scream in my mind..
now longing for a flight,
out of this sight..
i wan my freedom, i wan my friends.
i wan my games, i wan my dreams..
i wan my health, i wan my rights.
pls.. show mi your might
and free mi, from this nightmarish night....

oh well.
today is a super fucked up day =.=
why leh? sinple..
yesterday ah ma packed my room and suepr lots of thigns lost la!!!!
esp my 4gb memory stick!! ..........................
it costed mi around 100 bucks when i bought it.............haiz.
then morning cannot find my pe shorts, then go take choc i needa give ppl?
and realsed my father ate one of them!!!!
i was fucking mad that for a moment i din wan to go to school la...
fuck fuck fuck...
zzzzz...
ya, as it is said by adora, today is not my day... =.=
but i managed to seize the break time to study econs.. and paid super high attention during econs lecture.. cos mr chew was giving exam tips.. =)
as a result, i was falling asleep afeer that =.=
donno why i always feel so tired during day time..haiz..
then after sku still needa do pw till 630 then can go home =.=
if joseph din misplace the mac book i guess i still need to do the nma project till 8?
i wonder how i survive..

well i i think i should talk about tuesday, which was a super big day =.=
i had my eyes check up like finally?
reached novena at 2 and att he mrt station, a man on wheel chair asked mi to help push him to novena square 3rd floor =.=
he really v hao yi si =.= ask mi push till so far..
but of cos i could not reject la.. lols..
but its dam funny, cos i was wearing quite ncie clothes? and pushing some1 on wheel chair drew alot attention.zz.. alot students look at mi like alien..
i had a hard time finding the way out cos i could not find the lift!! yawn..
then finally i reached the hospital..
wat happened after that? 4 hrs of waiting =.=
they put a eye drop en enlarge my eye pupils and i cant see things when its near..
wa dam scary..
everything so blur.. =P and the effect wouldl ast for 6 to 8 hrs? zzz
then the doctor say my right eye got a hole on the membrane!
wa freakin scary man..
then ask mi to do a laser treament or surgery..
then wat happened?
he do it half way and suddenly say the hole is some pigment decolouration or something then re examined again " using the strong light."
wa i have been suffering under the strong light for 1 hour plus sia..wtf..
dam unfcomfortable 1.. now then they say don need..zzzz.
sian diao.. then in the end he din solve my problem at all..
i still see shadows that makes mi dizzy la..
i wonder if it can be cured.............dots..

ah.... i am utterly happy about this sudden, surprising holiday!!!
omg i have really gotten so tired la..
=P anyway, yesterday was the project runway finals.. walao!!
how the hell did we get into finals la.. zz..
its so pai seh pls..
we have to cat walk in the canteen wearing those recycled clothes!! argh!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....
i dono how many times i ahhhhed la..ahhhhhhh...lols..
hm.. oh ya, the latin dance!
the teacher is funny.. but hoh, the ppl there are all like v old ppl? lols..
got aging population..
and i still have to work on accepting my partner..zzz.
i should have consulted xmm' s advice earlier la!!
forgot she is dancer, zz...
nvm, the next session i may change studio =P where all the fun ppl are..
stupid jia yuan, cheat mi go there de..
hopefully, i am gonna watch Ironman and Doomsday tml..woo..
and k box next week... =)