woo..
i cant fall asleep sia..lols..
nvm can update my blog..
friday went for the high jump then NMA camp!!
ahh, i donno how to jump the back method with one leg la.. the teacher say just wif 2 feet will be disqualified =.=
then i had to use the scissors method? zzz, super inefective method!
but i got third!! omg.. so happy.. wheee...woo....
and mad quite many frens there..
there was this malay guy that took part in long jump also..and later the relay =.=
he like take part in eveything sia..
=P ok then the nma camp! lols..
i am so dam glad that i brought my portable speaker..woo..
when i feel like being alone, just sit at 1 coner and play song wif it.. its so dam shiok..
but i don get the chance la..
always got ppl come join mi..
i cant have the chance to emo.lols..
then the night activity which requires running, that joseph keep chasing mi !!! kaoz..
he follow for like 1km la..wth..
dam tiring la..
then during the game i accidently use my left thumb to brake =.=.. its dam stupid..
then got it sprained..ah.. lols..
then they don have medical oil! ah..
i had to endure it for 1 more day =.=
but i must thank hui xin here..
though she is one is the incharged ppl of the camp, i don think its her duty to run up and down like 6 times or more calling ppl and trying to get medicine for mi la..
i am v grateful to that =)
oh ya, my group name was " cows and chickens" lols..
thats like so crap?
but our group facilidator is v cute 1 leh..
he looks like a star, but i forgot who..
actually all the j2s are very friendly 1 la..
i am seriously amazed =P
and thnx to for him that accept my cheer as group cheer, and togethter wif efforts put in by every1, made it into a super cute 1 lols..
i think the only pity is that wen yuan and chen hui din come for the camp la.
they bloody pang seier!!
arghh..
ok i shall continue wif the camp thing..erm..
oh, there was a chance when they were playing bball. lols..
so i go joined in.. but they were v noob =X but jia yuan is not bad!
i m amazed by the amont of things he noes..
but he got retained due to that =.=
so i shall not immitate that..
hm...now the food..lols..
i din really eat their food at all during the 1st day =P
i ate 2 cup noodles on the 1st day and 1 cup noodle on the second day =.=
i am really too picky sia.. but the 2nd day de food was nice enough for mi to swallow down lol..=)
and i applied for EXCO, which is the executive commitee =P .. why? cos i love NMA! haha.
now basically i come to sku for NMA la =.=
sku work is a pain in my ass...ouch..
oh, and tuesday will be my 1st latin class.. woo..
words to describe mi, excited excited and excited =.=


the shortest word for mi is I.

the sweetest word for mi is LOVE

the only word for mi is YOU.. =P

beep beep..
yes i am now a robot ..
i need fuel..
beep beep..
but fuels now so exp =.=

anyways, yesterday too lazy to update =P
today got si bei stressed up.. lols.
1st, i made it into the 958 dj competition semi finals!
but its held at jurong point on sat=.=
and its open to public to view our contest.. wth...
so dam pai seh..
and so rush la.. need prepare a talent showcase..ahh..
hope my voice recover?
i shall sing that song.. without background music.
no matter wat sacasm i may get =)
cos i wan to delicate to some1 ...hehehe..

and tml is Cll test and handing up of Gp file..

Friday is handing up of PI!
Econs file,
sports heat,
speech day!
and class dinner!~~~~~~~

saturday is my semi finals....
monday and tuesday must record my jingle for morning broadcast..
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........
wednesday must record a video on the pop talent show case,
interview the participants,
and gotta do lots of Lit Hw...
and the following week is econs test and handing of GPP!!
WTF!!!!!!!
thats why i am so fking stressed that i cant sleep la..
my voice ah my voice..
pls recover by saturday ah.. if not i maty ah..
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

ok, release enough le..
just watched loveletter and omg..
its still as cool =P

kim jong kook is so cool la.. =P
i love the korean tv programes lots..^^

LOL..
wth la..just went to ntuc and saw the cheap water melon..
due to my mum' s challange, i bought 4 back home lols.
and took bus.
and the lousy yougn bus driver was a sucker la..
he drive is suddenly brake then sudden acclerate..
then my melons rolled all over the bus...wtf!!!
so dam pai seh..zzz
then bo bian i have to carry all including the 10 apples and pears and penuts, then the other hand hold to a stable place to stable my body =.=
stupid driver la.. (cold sweat)
finally reached home..
and today got quite few entertainments sia..
1st of all, a pic wif sun glasses ..
surely there are ppl who noes wat i am saying =P
2ndly, Eja is asking mi to help her promote her as a counsilor for election..
but the price to pay for my help is heavy.. hehehe...
sadly, my cough and flu still haven recover =.=
and my anti biotics runs out tml..
don tell mi i need to take a 4th course of different tyoe of anti biotic..
i think even my faeces is germless le.
only my throat that is heavily infected..zz.

maybe u are right.
i am clining to my dream.
to wat i imagined her as.
i may need to reknow her.
but it doesnt matter.
time isnt a problem to mi.
i have got 11 years to wait.
if ever this time it proves to be wrong.
then i guess the big L would not stand for anything again in my life..
but it proves to be right.
its gonna be the most romantic relation i have ever seen..
even better than the dramas ..wohoo
=)

oh cool.
1 week 3 mcs..
i am seriously worrying for my exams.
english lit is so difficult.
chinese lit is no much easier.
economics, hm..
i can do it, but i missed too many lessons..
maths, i think i can merely pass.
gp? "GG"
pw? i haven got any idea for PI.....
today still wasted whole day..
morning finally went for the boradcast competition..
thnx ah jia yuan!! still tell us read directly from script wont minus marks..
the judge say it will affect our score la..haiz.
though i read fluently and din make any mistake, i think i din make my report interesting enough. too offocial..zz..
then the writter test is a sure gone case..
who would go remember mas salamak' s chinese name?!
who would remmeber all the minister names =.=
who would remember capital of those old countries.
and the lousy tan tock seng haven call mi for appointment ..
how long they gonna drag....
i wonder if i should still join sports events.
donno why theh ell i went to jc..
but now i cant turn back..
i see the 2 paths..
1 is drop sku and suffer poverty for the rest of my life.
1 is endure and overcome this stress and the future is bright and sunny.
i just hope i have the chance to even make a choice..
i just hope the 4 vaccines i skipped last 2 years wontaffect mi.zz.
i just hope the pieces of darkness i see will pass off soon..
in this state, i donno wat else i can say..
god bless ba....
now i have skipped all my social life..
i have given up everything...
i just hope i can be myself back..
i wan my healthy body...
i wan back my cheerfulnes.s...
i wan back my optimism...
i don like my thinking now...
so pathtic pessimistic...
why do i have so low confidence about myself...
why do i always get sick at the most crucial time...
why am i so hum ji...
why am i so lazy....
why am i so ugly...
why am i so useless...
thousands of pathetic whys keep lingering over my mind.
polluting my soul..
i observed many stories.
many tv series.
many many ppl..
the only thing u can do, to win over ur lover' s heart is to have a special talent.
no matter wat it is, u have to have 1..
and u need to put it to good use.
is that why i have so low self esteem now?
i don dare to look any1..
i feel my standard being too low..
and i really donno how many true friends i have..
can i really depend on any1..
cos i am in a state that i really cant handle alone..
i need a break from my life.
this jc life of hell.
maybe all the problems are caused by my sku.
i really don wan to be in this sku..
wat can i do now....
Nothing..
Its too late..
ok, now all the best for my eye check up =)
i will try to do it..
overcome my laziness..
pls..

there i am where thee not.
the infantine tenor that i shouldered on.
with red, silent scream i lament your absence.
its a potty way,
its a untypical way,
i acquiesce... i confess not.
for the reason is unadorned.
thou shalt not give up on you..
tough dawdling but worthing....
for my heart is not one but half..

its a new morning, a new start .. yes..
i have to read 10 chapters of lit text and finish my pi when i cant find any diary of any patient..
yesterday played wif mok..
bball and dota. yet i find no meaning in both la.
why i find everything so boring de..
all the hobby i had last time became so meaningless =.=
oh my....still got my jingle......
yesterday even forgot that theres flag day la.... shake head..
my life is so messed up =.=
i shall chiong my hws.
shiong ah..




its time that i shall stay away from those that don show mi respect.

lols..
i cant make myself do the PI leh.
totally donno who to write for the journey..haiz..
accesbility.. feasiblity...managability..
tml get back my lous draft =.= tml then see ba..
friday still go all the way to mediacorp for the explaination talk..=.=
hope my script isnt written that badly compared to other ppl.
sian diao..
everything everyday i like so rush..
go home just wan to sleep...lols..
how am i going to complete those assignments liket this sia..
my stressness is piling up..=.=
lols..
now i am like a super loner in sku?
i don socialise at all.lols..
except my Cll class ppl..
cos got wen yuan and chen hui those 2 funny ppl =P
v good to laugh at them..
i wonder how i going to survive without them T-T sob..
and they both got go k box 1 sia..
find 1 day we shall go for our brothers outing =P..
but can we find time? lols..
i wan to do alot things, i wan to play cabal, i wan to play bball.
i wan to play psp, i wan to read my story book..
i wan ti go gym train, i wan to watch love letter, i want to watch zong yi da ge da.
i wan to watch "my girl" again.
i wan to watch jin san shun, i wan to play audition..
i wan to play dota.. i wan to watch movie..
in just 1 year, i lost my frens my freedom my everything..=.=
but since i have nth to lose now, it should be the turning point already? or do u wan mi to complete the square to look for it..zz
and since i am at the bottom, it means i work hard a little more i will seee big significance?
hmm...since no ppl can encourage mi, maybe i should cont to movitate myself..
like how i encouraged myself during the long run..
i can never forget the sense of ahievement =P i won myself....
but for studies i need more encouragement sia..
but sadly i cant look for any of my frens..
every1 is so busy..
many of my classmates regret coming to jc..
but i have to endure it, cos i made the choice myself.
for my pride, for my future.
for this realitic world, i need the cert.. its no use with just brain.
i need to force myself to study.
but how to..ahhhh
i still wan to learn piano, learn singing, learn guitar.. learn dance..
i was such a unrestricted person..
now that all the weight land on mi.
before i collapse and suffocate to death, i must hang on..
if i ever make it out this jail, there i would find my utorpian world..