woo.finally back to tian jin from da lian..
went there for hm... 3 days 2 nights..
the train was bloody crowdy..
cant sleep at all la...
then ate alot weird seafood..zzz.
dam scary la...
but jw' dad treat mi eat also don eat...zz...
almost vomit out la..
scary ..
the sea and beach so nice lo..much better than singapore de..
there de no much ship, and no END!
look like got a big waterfall in the distance at the horizon..
din get to see the sun rise and set. thats a pity..
the shopping centre there also better then tian jin de..
got more things to shop =P
donno why i cant resist buying rings ..hehe..
back to tian jin in the morning at 4am.. then got a taxi draver cheat my money sia..ta ma de..
lazy to describe the incident..
now my didi and mum also came to tian jin..
but that dumb di di don let mi hug at all...not fun liao..
sians.. i wan go back singapore....zzz







2yrs and 364 more days.....

lols..its been long since i can find a com to update my blog huh..
right now in china =P
the air plane flight was dam longing la ta ma de.
like waiting for ever..
the car ride from bei jing to tian jin also dam long =.=
wan sleep cannot sleep cos the sit not suitable for tall ppl like mi and cause neck pain..
but reach there is dam fun la..
the standard of libing of my relative here is like so dam high la..
everyone got car =.=
its everyone!!!!... wth..
herecar quite cheap also la...
then almost everymeal go restraunt. .
of cos not everytime go the super big one la...lols
little cousins dan cute =P
abd hong yang has grown up sia.
170+ height and wear glasses liao.. look like land lord - according to my aunty ( his mother)
erm now i can live alone at grandma house whcih was renovated..lols..got 2 big rooms all for myself.
dam shiok la.. just that don have ocmputer to use which is really v sian..
then here every1 smoke alot..
now i getting used to the smoke liao.=.=
then sometimes need drink wif uncle.
now can drink a few cans of beer without feeling anything =.=
kao.. then yesterday went to v big bath place..
public bath or wat..
got shower got a pond of hot water and got steam bath or smt..
then got massage..
somemore is gal massage 1 sia..
then the arm massage she go cros finger to shake my arm make mi chua diu..
ta ma de...
2nd time hold hand like that give to a stranger....
but anyway the massage kind of helped on my neck and back ache condition..
then got back the house already 1am..
they prepared in the frig choc and drink and snack..lol..
so took some and watched dvd =P
here the dvds dam cheap la..
$1 sing dollar can buy 6 movies =.=
the quality not bad lo!
its like 120 times cheaper than singapore la...
haha..gonna buy more soon.
later feel like going the arcade there to play a while..
think is 25cents for 4 credits lol...
oh ya...and shopping..
here buy thing die die must bargain 1..
the things i buy are all like reduced to half price lo..
any1 wan tips for bargaining? i can teach you =)
and here de ppl all not shy one...like stranger tak to stranegr is v common..
and mostly not very educated..
the place is also very dirty la..
cos the police all don care one..
just spit on floor =.=
then cross road the signal light like uselss..all just cross also nobody care..
i walk at red light in front of a traffic police he don even give a dam la..
then here de breakfast very feng1 fu4...
and of cos super cheap =P
wahaha..
the nice food got so much that i don feel like eating mac or kfc at all la..
now the only 2 cousin haven seen is niu niu and younges aunt de daughter..
lst time she baby i diu her shit when changing pampers for her la.
now must see how she become lols..
actually overall here is dam shiok la..
but the difference between the rich and poor is very great..
the rich can throw 100 dollars at u..
the poor will fight over a few dollars till DEATH..
yes death i mean it..
got once got promotion over petrol ..
everyone chiong there to buy and 10 ppl were stepped to death...=.=
we are all so fortunate ppl =.=
that is why education is so bloody important..
if i make it to a good jc..
gonna chiong studies...
at least get into the university and then i can persue my dream of being a bussiness man =)
ahhhhhhhh i wanna bballlllllllllllllllll.....................

3rd time i have been watch lake house !!
but the tear stil lcant stop =P
why?
cos the movie is soo awwwwwwwww........
ahhh..

its no use avoiding, no use hiding..
cos i knew it..
i know it v clearly..
i love you...

woo..today, 13 nov, my o is finally over!!
went str8 oppoite sku to dye my hair!! ( plus highlight)
omg it was quite cheap le lo..
then finally decided to go to ice skating after hasitating for v long..
wif zh sean jun xi to meet jing wen kuan ting jian kun kai xian..
then we were like 1st wait for mi dye hair then wait for sean buy thing then wait for jx go home take socks =.=..
previously played bball wif sean beforee and found that he is actually quite pro sia..
got him v fun, all about guys talk lol..
so jun xi was there don understand wat we 3 talking..=P
ok then around 6 then reach there la..
and its group of 4 de so 4 go in then 4 must come out together sia..
then 6 30 kai xian needa go home if i din spell her name wrongly..
jing wen was desperately finding single ppl to change ticket till like 7 then finally give up..
saw kx there going cry sia..
can imagine how fierce her parents..
heard that she was scolded and felt v guilty sia..
if i din drag to go meet them then may not be so troublesome =.=
ok la not really my fault..but still guilty =.=
then after that we went out shortly after and ate kfc..
poor zh had to pay for sean and jx de ice skate fee and jx de kfc lol...
his $50 like that gone..
and he admited he spent like over $100 on jun xi sia.
he not even so good to gals la..
wat a gay =.=
then after that di nwan watch movie le cos of some1 kee phasitate then in the end say cannot huh lol..
last min decided to watch wif zh alone at hub..
watched star dust ..
omg its so super nice la the movie..
funny and imaginative, surprising and romantic =P
at the start still tot is universe war or smt lame lol...
yay... so now back home..
i shall go maple !!! oh lei oh lei oh lei oh lei.

ok comes to real posting..
long time before i post..
recently having o level and made mi no mood to eat nor sleep..
then started playing bball vigiously again..
after knowing zh, who love bball so much that can play whole day alone..
and he is improving quite quickly..
yet his coach don look good on him, wasting his talent la..
feel like slapping that coach sia..
he is like one of the best player and he only let him play 2 min??
k, then today, a usually went cc to play bball..
then frens come group by group =.=
got surprised when saw zhen yang and lao gao..
quite long nv find them dota liao..
mok also, came play bball a while wif mi..
wanted to study bio but study a while cannot take it le..
hope tml can study well in sku.zz..
i wan my o quick end!!!!
iwan dye my hair!!!
i wan buy alot thing ahh.
if nth goes wrong during grad ball gonna perform wif yu hui??
omg..after o will be so fun..
just few more days..
my grey and brown hair, wait for mi!!!!!!!!!!!
any1 wanna pei mi shop on tues or wed? hehe..

i donno what to say.
but i don wan to lie to anyone.
if not both will only get more hurt..
i noe its hard to accept..
i experienced it..
everything is fine but lack of 1 thing,
something really important..
the feel..
its gonna hurt badly..
i noe it..
i experienced it..
after so long...
after all..
i guess u are right..
i have never put down her..
she came into my life wif her voice..
and left wif my heart..
the feel was nth compared to when i was wif her..
i noe it hurting....but guess it cant be helped..
if it could, i would not have landed on misery months ago..
till now then i realised, i still cannot let go of her..
and now, i understand her feeling..
i noe why we were impossible.
i regret asking her the important question..
i gave her unnecessary pressure..
now is my retribution..
the god want mi tp experience it..
and at the same time stabbing my heart wif another cruel truth..
i still love her..

its been long.
since i met one.
one who can make mi rely on,
the spiritual and emotional support.
the light of hope and care..
yet, i moved too fast..
i missed the 1..
the 1 i have ben looking for..
she is gone..
no longer the original 1..
i cant blame her..
my soul was unstable..
it needed too long to heal..
i hasitated..
until everything is over, i finally realised.
wat i want could be so simple, yet so hard....
yup, now its my turn to make another decision..
i shall thereafer throw away al my soul, all my love..
give my next a souless flesh yet full of artificial care..
i am too exhausted to type any letter further..
once again.. i lost to you..
cos you are nothing but a useless emotion that bring nth but sorrow to my soul..
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