soo dam long nv update..haha.
anyway erm.. spent my bday wif someone unexpected( xiao li)
then after that was all mug and bball, mug and bball.
anyway thnx for all the bday presents.. especially:
zi yun,
janice,
jing wen,
huan sheng,
wei chi,
xiao li,
olivia xiao mei mei,
hope i din miss out any1..
and of cos, thnx all for the bday wishes..haha..
it will be too naggy if i list down.. but u all just noe that i am very gratefull =)
i shall be expecting a gift from some ppl..lol..cos its a tradition that we exhange bday gifts.
and recently i am like everyday prepare for chem like that lol and guess wat?
i think i can get A for chemistry..omg..
i had nv passed chem in my life.lol.. now i am so confident that i can even get A..so happy..
but it is also cos of my hardwork spent on chemistry la..
ok then another thing is piano..
my mum agreed tp buy 1 for mi after o..
and i now can play "i believe" half way le.. both hands..lol..
improvement..
k now i wanna go huan sheng house play a bit of piano then study my geog....cya my complainer blog =)

wtf...
i give my heart to u..
i treat u as my good fren..
i told eveyrthing and anything..
i tried to find ways to help you..
i risk my own safty to protect u..
i was so concerned when u get bullied...
this is all i get?
now i have become the betrayer?
the betrayer is being betrayed and baclstabbed out of nothing?
wtf...
then don make those smile la..
morning can laugh laugh laugh..
behind there stab mi to my soul?
then fuck off la...
i don need u find ppl to kb mi..
think i easy bullied by gals?
have you ever seen when i get real angry?
if not then FUCK OFF RIGHT NOW and disappear from my sight before i really get angry..
u have may have some backup..
so wat?
i scared?
not a single hair of mine is shaking...
cos u noe wat?
the dark can never win the right side...
so once again, FUCK off every ones of you wearing that smiling cunning mask...
i don need ur fake company...
i have seen all the backstabs within urselves..
i know i cant do much to help that..
but don fuckingly pull mi down this thrend pls..
if wan drag mi to this game, i quit now..

yawn..just wake up nia...
for a hardworking person who dislike sleeping its so rare..
k yesterday went to movie wif zi hang..(resident evil 3)
then saw benjamin chong at the cinema outside there, waiting for show to start..
he also watching same show same time lol...but alone..
then we all watch together lo.. got free potato chip ^^
the show is all abot scaring ppl la ..zzz....
then got 1 part thought all peace liao sudenly a head appear from top..zzz....
then i shout out ahhh...then ben and zh keep laughing at mi...zzzz
nvm lo..zh i will make sure u suffer for ur next 3 years in anderson..
wan xfer better don xfer to mayflower deyi amk peirce sec.....hehehe
k then went home to eat, getting nagged like siao and went to bball at 555..
cos doggy and huan sheng going there...
then 10pm the light off =(
went to huan sheng house to play piano!
1st time in my life =P
he taught mi how to look at the positions...
but i practice like 1 hour can only play 4 lines ...
yawn............

another emo night....
just went to play wif zi hang..
tml got lots of activity planned..
but why do i feel so empty..
cos i need a real close fren..
some1 i can talk alot to..
or maybe just some1 that when i talk to, i don feel bored..
yes, i just wan a tan de lai de fren..
not anything else.
cos those things only bring negative result..
yup...
and tonight every1 seems so busy....
i dint noe who to look for....
yet my day is saved by xmm surprisingly, by being suaned from start till end...
yet i din feel sian or wat for being suaned =.=
why my mood got better?
hmm....guess the answer is right on top...
so thanks duper lots....
and i realised frens are the best.....=)
bleah...

hmm..today i am soo lucky..haha..
after maths as planned introed chicky to mei...
i am sure he will take care of you when i m not around =)
just as you promsied to take care of "her" ..
ok then took a photo wif 2-4 gang..
and helped timothy ..he must be dam happy..
anyway, from left to right: mi, olivia, amelia, zi yun, shi hui and charrisa..
all are dam nice peoples...
don worry i wont forget all of you..=)








of cos, i cant forget "STRANGER" ! once a

stranger, akways a stranger =P

hard to find ppl in the same boat huh? i found

1..isnt that cool..lol..

ok well, thnx for everything ya..

lets hope both our love life will be full of

colours!

ok also thnx to our photograther zi hang.. =P

wat did i do after that? oh..lol...was at bubble tea shop, camping to see some1' s "boyfren"
at the same time, playing wif bunch of sec1s and jun xi..omg.i feel i become 5 year younger...
lazy to upload all the photos, cos all are at frenster =P
jun xi was busy bullying amelia and mi and zi hang were happily wtching them fooling around..
finally, we went off..peied zh to the police station again, to give my contact number, if not cant contact him if his cell phone is found..cos he don have a home phone...yawn..
after that went back to sku to study...
omg my luck is really great..
just as i wan to take a break, saw man ting going out of library also..and guess wat? she was gonna play piano...!
haha..i went to hide so as to make her feel she was playing alone as agreed...so was sitting behind the wall, facing the carpark and the parade aquare, and the drizzling rain...i cant believe i love love the sound of piano to the extent i listened to her playing for full 40min..
at the same time, got inspiration from the music and wrote this into my phone:

the music of love, floated towards mi through the drizzling sky..
the sound of romance pierced right through my soul and forced open my eyes...
suddenly, a thunderous storm struck heavily onto the ground,
vanishing away with all my joy and meaning of life.
i stood right in the rain, nobody was beside.
sadly, all that i have sensed were all illusions, beautiful imaginations made by my mind..
oh god, please don take them away from mi,
for i cant let such a beauty escape out of sight..
i want my love, i want my joy..
finally, the ray of warmth filthered through the holes between the whitening clouds and secretly surrounded mi by my side..
i heard it again.. Yes, i heard it once again..
the music of love and joy, its always by my side..
never out of sight..
Yes, love is always by our sight...

hmm...this sat morning..
while i prepare to go out to study alone..
let mi describe wat happened yesterday ba..
oh ya, found 2 new talkers to talk to...
maybe share secret with..
and i realised it really feels like a burden is put down ..
so much more relieved..
so thnx for joanna and zi hang...
though its been 2 years since i really chat wif you, i am glad that every1 is still the same..
ok, morning, it was my last official day to sku, and last day that go to sku at sku hour..
thought of meeting some1 to walk to sku..
but..............
then walked to sku alone.....
head down for the entire day...
no mood, no feel, no appetide....
and i realised...they are just illusions..
time to face reality..
thus i wont really wish for anything..
but theres still a wish...
i wonder if it is possible to accomplsh it..
before i leave anderson.....

afternoon ate lunch at home..
then went to cc for bball..
zi hang was 30 min late...zzz....
adora brought a few giant seniors..
same type as xiao hui...and found out they were frens =.=
then xh came and die die also don wan play, claiming herself being too lousy..zzz...mvp lousy, who pro?
played against a group of super pro ppl, actually only 1 is very the pro..
he was tall and muscular..
huan sheng could hardly defend him....
then after playing, zi hang lost his phone=.=
when he put it right behind his backside...
then pei him go police station lo..
heng i go, he donno his own phone number and home number...=.=
but had a super long chat wif him....there comes 2 second talker...
then went home....MSN
ok i was quite happy, had a chance thnx to zh to talk wif some1..
was trying to clear the misunderstanding...
and reconvinced something..
yup, i said it , so i can do it..
think thats all...

oh ya..forgot to mention that i recently found a old song, like i listened 6 years ago..
its still sound dam nice...'
its name is i believe, a jap song..some cha1 qu3 of "over time'
of cos, its a jap show..and both the song and show are super depressing..
i almost cried 3 times listen to it 3 times...hm...
its at the media box o my friendster profile..can any1 help mi find the song? ....
anyway, just edicted a poem i wrote out of inspiration recently...

you, broke my ice..
you, melted my snow..
if i have a chance,
i would gonna sue you..
for causing fever to my heart,
and burning my soul..
cos you made mi love you so....
think i showed to 3 ppl liao =P
totally in love with it..
now i am so glad i took literature sia..i would regret my whole life if i took geog =)

still finding some1 to give this poem to =)

argh..sians...
its just 1 word from 1 person, and i get so affected?
zzzz..
i don need alot of frens..
just 1 that i think is v suitable fren is enough for mi..
i don care about the others at all..
pls undertand it..
you have got to..
i wonder why has it become so complicated...
maybe i will just hide it and show as surfaced right now..
my last little secret before i gets 18...

wow..today somehow felt very motivated..
ok lets see...morning time got on to the bus and saw 2 wl..lol...
then got down the bus wl was like don dare to talk like that sia..zz..
though she can talk alot craps in msn..
then today de lessons all v attentive...omg, i cant feel more motivated liao..
noon chiong to mac to buy lunch ...and got myself drenched in sweat...zz..
then after maths remidial went to library to study from 2 till 6 30!!!
and when i go there, saw amelia sitting there study alone! whcih can be as rare as hitting toto..so quickly called wei jie..
wa he really chiong here and skipped history lesson..lol
but at 1st he din dare to sit wif her, so i had to ask the 4-7 ppl who were later on talking to amelia to move away form her, then help wei jie ask her if he could go there..
due to the holes on his socks, wj din an to sit at there place that had to take out shoes, =.= so i invited amelia over..and soon gorge chased her out cos its past 5..
then after that theres a chance and wei jie could finally go study wif her alone outside staffroom..hehe..pictures taken but cant post la, they got their privacy..and 6 30 when i go home, they were still there la..wow.. wj you owe mi a meal...
got home and got totally daoed by my didi..zzz.
he cried when i carry him..wth...
don bring him out to play le...anyway got no much time also, gotta put every single sec that is possible to study...yup..
ok, tml last day of normal timing to sku...gonna skip extra lesson cos it will be ss and english..
oh and tml will be playing bball at chen sang wif zi hang...
cos adora invitedmi there... and shes bring some sec 3 senior b boys theres..go let zh see their standard..
wondering if i should call aqua huan sheng go..=.= scared he scare the gals away lol....ok its v bad to say that..so i shall stop here...

is it time for mi to face the reality...
am i escaping from something..
can i overcome the fear..
can i wake up from my dream...
should i stop the this thing..
yawn..

zz...this is lame...
today is totally crap..
morning talked back wif mdm wong for wrongly acusing mi of playing too much psp and guess wat, during the diamond session i was told that she told the whole bunch of teachers........and they keep say i got attitude prob? =.= well, if u really wan mii to have, i can show u wats my real attitude problem is..but i am not that petty....so they ask mi to apologise to mdm wong, i shall think of how...=.= bloody bullshit la..
anyway, morning time heard that yi hong' s choc plan failed..and the gal throw the choc on floor and ask all her frens to step on it..guess wat, his fren got him back the choc and he ate it! and said "yum.. at least din waste toe $1.30" lol...omg..i rolled on the toilet floor when i heard it from yao le la..omg omg omg...lol...anyway, today have been trying to study...
and did a full chem paper after the talk at library and went hom to cont study till now...shall slack a bit now =)
finaly, i got over the disappointment and realised theres only 2 more days i can take early bus..aw...hope i can hear the piano pieces soon =)

well, its been a super fuck up day..
morning i may say that i was lucky, though i wasnt informed, i managed to get on the impt bus..then peied yi hong to give sharleen from 1-6 choc, after encouraging him for whole night yesterday..lol..
he was hiding at the stairs and yao le and his fren gave to her..then i pushed him out and he ran to his classroom...=.=
if wan give choc then run wats the point la..
erm then got back the results for prelim..
L1R5 about 26? well, i did improve from 40 in sa2 and34 in ca2..
well, maths teacher called mi out during recess when i already wasnt in the good mood..and talked those useless things that i already totally understood for 40 min and i had no recess at all..
great huh? and guess wat? just then i saw the sms that the piano piece that i was looking forward so much to hear that i thought could be the only happy thing i was gonna experience today, that i wouldnt be able to.. cos someone pang sei mi...dot...
yup...then totally was so down that the food i smuggled form canteen i could hardly sawllow it..
oh ya, i almost wanted to scold the teachers who made fun of my result...you noe who you are, assholes...well, as i am civilised, of cos i dint scold at them...
overwhelmed with the disapointments and sadness, i emoed at corridoor again.
ok, at least i had frens to come and concern and i am very grateful ...
yup...also thnx to nice gal for letting mi vent my anger out....=)
i definitely felt much better..
then in the afternoon xiao hui peied mi to hub to catch a movie..
at first i thought i was gonna waste my money watching the stuid nanny show..but later on it got quite fun? or interesting and touching ba..
almost cried but xh made mi laugh instead ..zzz.
yup...after the movie it was like threw the heavy burden away...phew...
well, if its really that hard to just listen to a piano piece form some ppl that i wan to listen from, i give up..wonder why life is so bo liao, all i wan is to listen to piano and is it that difficult...ahh ya,, heck cares for now..
though now feel much better, i have no more mood for any anything somehow..
i cant sense the meaning of this life..
whatever i wan so much, whatever i work hard for, in return? i get nothing but disappointment and sadness..if fate really wan to torture mi, then make it worse..
i will make sure i show you how strong i am....z...it soo fucking full of crapz...
anyway, now i have fell in love with this song, hey delilah..
a song a guy wrote for his girlfren miles away..i admire his loyalty and romance....yup...thats all i am gonna say..

if you really even care about mi, prove to mi..cos i don sense anything that i even have a value in you....seriously...and thats very saddening to noe..yup.