sat..
this whole week think alot thigns happened
tuesday my grandma bday...
went to eat donno wat crab at a place that is so called to be famous..
oh ya ..
din go to school on that day..cos of my severe headache..
wednesday i cant forget wat happened..
thursday went botak jos or donno wat place to eat western food wif class ppl..got zhi an yee min calvin wei jie elizabeth yok cheng see peng and marven..
wat i ordered was a food called "you-crazy-wat" meal
consist of a burger and 3 slices of cheese..
then they ask mi if i wan beef...
thought it was free so asked fori t..in the end turned out to be 1 cheese each and i had to order 3 cheese..
the frices got dam lot cos i changed salad to fries...
and the beef was really not nice..
maybe its i not used to this type..
i would rather buy beef steak...haiz..
forget it..
then at night went tuition and xiao hui brought a new fren there..
the class was supposed to be a quiet 1 and no 1 talks at all..
cos all were supposed to do their work..
then the new 1 suddenly come in and say to teacher " hi teacher ! i am the new student and i am xiao hui' s fren!"
omg cant imagine how embarrased xh was..lol
i was to about to message her " very diu lian"
but then went back to do my work..
yup..later on when we introduced she called herself chang2 er2 =.=
nvm..
friday went to campfire...invited by zi yun =.=
ya and went there cos yun jie and yi ting were going..
we got impt to discuss anyway...
sat which s today nth happened.. due to my emotion, i shall stop here.
yes right here



shes always on my mind,
from the tiem i wake up,
till i close my eyes,
shes is everywhere i go.
shes on my mind.
when shes so far away,
it just keeps get stronger,
everyday.
until she is gone,
i am still holding on.
tell mi where does it start,
cos its breaking my heart,
don wanna let her go..

omg this song is such a nice song that described my heart..
think alot ppl are facing the same problem.
any1 who wan this song tell mi! though only 4 ppl noe this place..
if ever passerby came across this, and interested to have the song..find way ba..


maybe my love will come back some day, only heaven knows.
i know it wont come back..
but my heart cant let go..
but,
i shall live happily ever after..
cos i am a strong "man" !
bring it on all the problems..
i gained nth but strength and determination =)

ok these 2 days acutally alot of thignsh appened..
ok mostly today..
yesterday nth much , just that went tuition and reached there earlier than usually..
yun jie arrived when i finished eating al my choc cakes and finished my milo..and pak leng was late yet they still went to buy waffle...yawn..
then after tuition went to j8 with them to play at arcade a while..
i almost passed stage 2 la..all cos of pak leng go disturb la..zz.
then bought ome food and went home..
took 88 wif yun jie and she pang sei mi go sit down and i had to stand..kao..
mei yi qi...
then got 2 pai kia and their gf at the bus hug here kiss there all the way till i get down..=.=


now come to today...
morning bought 6 sets of mac breakfast, some for xiong dis for supporting mi at the audition..
i was really gan dong..
then PE had fun playing captain ball.
but al lthe gals were cheating la..
either push mi away or knock mi or obstruct mi from blocking the ball..zz.. heng sharleen at my team if not will be worse..
then had boring EFL
and qurraled wif marven cos of lunch thing..
but we both apoegised to each other after that..
then had a deep sleep till 7 then i realised i am dam sick..
headache dizziness and flu..zz
these few days weather very the cold...
erm then at msn then i realised 2 v tragic thing..
my best fren' s father had just died sudenly of cancer...
no wonder he tels mi he has no mood... haiz..
a life can be gone just like that..the preciousness of life...haiz..
another thing is that my long ago de lost- contact-maple gf has just contacted mi via msn..
and her bf broke up wif her ..
when she ask him whether he was after her body or feeling,
that bastard said he dint noe..
after 2 years of relationship he din noe =.=
oh well she is kinda weird also..
just broke wif bf and wanted to meet mi...hmm...
started calling mi dear dear like in maple at last time again..eh..
weird and weird...should i meet her or no?
yawn...guess now i better find ways to console chicky instead of thinking about other things ba... thats all for today..

wa kao..
k this is wat happened on yesterday thurs..
was called up by yun jie and yi ting to go buy joanna present wif them after school..
then bought a dress..lol..we will force her to wear it..
hmm then was told they watching movie wif 2 other guys from other sku..
and yi ting ask mi to pei her cos only yun jie noe the 2 guys?
so i went home to change while they go answer the big call of nature..
then went back to find them..
the 2 guys not bad sia, 1 handsome 1 cute..
the cute 1 very frenly. lol i am not gay hoh..
we watched my wife is a gangster 3..
actually not that bad la just that the male actor very ugly..zz... dam er xin when they hug and kiss la..
eh then went back home practiced for talentine.. while still coughing..
PS zi yun! hand phone no bat, could not contact you to pass you the cough medicine..
then today.. omg..dam bad day..
morning went to 2-4 passed charrisa the 2 ethnic costume i promsied to lend them..
then had 3 boring lessons..
then talentine!!!
and my throat was like got worse? cos of some ppl cookign sathay and the exhaust gas make mi cough cough cough la..
then i and yee ching screwed ouf audiiton..!
she forgot that got 1 part she must sing wif mi to cover my weak jia3 yin1..
and all the actions we planned she forgot...oh dam..
and my solo performance, i sang wrong key..
oh well, god bless..anyway thnx for all who came to support mi.!!
the cheer was really loud...very good encouragement!
after that went home changed and met tracy ...
had kfc as lunch and she ate super duper slowly =.=
i finished my food like 15 min faster than her?
then went to look for wei jian at gsc wif her cos she havent seen him for 4 years, but he gave a heck care expression when saw her lol..
rude sia..
saw darren phua and 4-5 ppl there also..
then we went away..
we walked to her house there ..on the way she was like keep playing wif her hair again =.= ..
saw yee ching jun xiong and some other 4-1 ppl at her house area there play table tennis..
joined them playing a while after that and then went to gsc to find wei jian..
played a match of owning dota and the opponent left half way giving up..
zzz, even lan shop has leavers now..
then wait v long for game and gave up..
then i return the com tag liao found kapop and aron was there too..
watched them play a while , giving advices..
they had no teamwork and thus lost =.=
nvm mahadier was worse la.. shall not mention how he play..
lol..tml sat...mok sure cant come out of ns.. yawn..
what shall i do tml!
ops, forgot i told some bball fren i saw at kfc i would go bball today..=.=
nvm heck...thats all for today...

wednesday!!
eh yesterday what happened ah?
kind of forgotten..oh..
had lessons in the morning then afternoon only had maths remidial then went home to sleep till 7 and had my dinner before going for my bball training..
quite boring at the training..
got 2 gan3 si3 dui4 keep chiong inside ignoring the ppl blocking them la.. =.=
then after that went home...yup..
today quite a full day..
actually alot thigns happened ...
since yetserday night, some1 posted my number at a forum telling ppl i was selling psp for $150 or donno how much...
and lots of ppl keep called and sms mi since then..
till now...
seriously i am very pissed by it now..don ever let mi find our who did it..cos both him and i would regret..
then recess, mdm ordered mac delivery as promised..
i was happily helping collecting the food to canteen..
then our class boked 2 full long tables for ourselves..
yet,when eveyr1 were happily eating their mac, i realised the mac left out my order.........................................
i was like drinking milo and watching them eating their food....
you cant imagine how diasppointed i was..
i got no mood to do anything after recess cos i had to eat snack while watching them eating mac...
and was totally sianed and emoed till after sku..
went home to change and went to k box to meet my long time no conatct pri sku fren - tracy..(who was found to be tummy' s cousin)
actually saw her a few tiems at bbal court at chen sang the previous 2 years la..
finally she got long hair and not as manly as last time..
but her singing....ahem...
shall not comment la =p
had fun teasing her...
after the k box thing it was 7pm..
1 hour away from my tuition =.=
go walk walk wif her till her house there and saw valerie on the way...
in the end found out she(Tracy) live near 438...
ok not v near..
in the end dam tired and din go for tuition lol...
i am so slack ...haiz...
but now not in the mood to care about that..
just worried for my throat..
or maybe the breakfast thing still affecting mi..z...
hope mdm wong do as promised to give mi mac breakfast tml...
End of today...

today monday..
yesterday was a boring day so shall not mention..
today was kinda long..
P.E lesson was the 1st period..
the NA ppl had their free breakfast at that period..lol.. at the canteen
and i saw MAC food!! omg..
then i sneak into 4-7 to cope some food
then i realsied that only sec 3 got to eat MAC breakfast and sec4s were liek eating "da bian" =.=
lol...chicky still ask mi help him eat his egg...eyyerr..
1stly i don eat egg at all, second it really looked disgusting la..
then went back for PE..
played captain' s ball.. or is it captain' s balls?
we were playing using 2 balls at the same time..
i had a hard time blocking la ...
the opponent team gals keep push mi away from the spot..zz..
i cant really fight back as they were "gals"
the weak creature...lol
or are they the "cannot offend" creatures..
oh.. almost forgot..
that bloody wei chi..
i was playing wif zhi an wif hai huang..
and i did not bring my tie..
then she go sabo mi to mr yong and keep persuading him to tell mdm neo when he was reluctant to do so la..
kb sia..
and when i ask her why sabo mi? she said cos its the retribution i get for bullying hai huang..
wat bullshit..
lets see wat her retribution is for saboing her so called 1 of her only 2 frens...
still like full of reasons...
better don tlak to mi again..
cos i don thnk i am gonna trust you..
i have given enough chances..sorry..
zzz..
shall not let her spoil my mood..
k lesson time i was paying full attention except literature class...
then chem was boring..
afetr sku had to anyhow eat my lunch wif keneth and hai huang...
then went for english course wif zhi an which was at the avt.
we were not paying attention at all la..
he was reading my story book "i bleieve you" ..
i paid part of the attention though and then smsed away..
we were like bu shaung hao yuan during the lunch break and both of us sent a "fucker" to him..(cos he kept scolding that)
thinking it was not enough, i asked about 10 of my frens to send it to him and 1 of them, kapok, told mi that he asked 20 of his frens to send also..
omg..that was cool..
hao yuan was asking zhi an, "walao! you asked 10+ ppl send mi fucker is it?"
lol...his expression dam funny...erm we slacked the last 20 min of the course outside avt at the door there..telling the teacher we needed the toilet...
playing sisciors paper stone... =.= sometimes i feel so dumb wif zhi an cos i always do childish stuff wif him =.=
during the course, if we answer question, we would get choc..
zhi an was like fighting so hard for the choc la..
but each time the teacher give choc, i go open up my hand, his choc became mine...lol
the teacher like mi...must be..
then after that went to practice the song wif yee ching and realised i cant sing wif my cough la..zz
then had to go home..
the 265 just passed and end up i walk her home all the way to erm..donno where..
just that i noe its very far...
near the crush i had 7 yrs ago which lasted 5 years..
what a memorable place ...hm...
k ..what the reason? to take bus from there cos there had 268, 76 and 165 =.= cos 265 had passed..diao
kind of bored and had nth to do at home anyway
i cant believe i can talk so much wif her , though i forgot wat we talked about.. =.= maybe its been long since i chat wif any1..
then went to take bus at there and realised it was peak hour...dot dot..
i had to stand on 1 leg for a moment..
yawn....
gotta go back room or else my parents will kb le....
hope my leg injury recover fast and my throat recover before the talentine....so good luck every1 who is sick and get well!

omg..so long before i update my posts..
erm, let mi see....its been a week..
sunday, went usually routine- bball dota...
monday went to look for mok after sku..
in the end he got to play i dint.. yawn...and he had to go back army at 5..
so i went home and slack..
then tuesday got extra lessons...dam tired...din go for maths tuition..
wednesday practiced singing again..thats when my throat starts to have problem... dam...cos of the ice- cream i ate..
thursday went home during the 1st extra lesson period cos thought 1st slot was SS which the teacher wasnt here.. yet it became lit..yawn..
i was back wif my bball suit and PE shirt..
so that i could go bball training after extra lesson str8..
then went soccer before yet and injured my toes...
in the end went home..
afraid that my throat got worse, went to see a doctor..
and asked for anti biotics.. i noe its not good for health but to recover quickly i had no choice..haiz..
started eating those medicines again..
fridayshould be a short day but got english course..
then went home and went dota wif wei jian and I.H.O.J after that..
then went home at 9 and watch TV..
then sat which was yesterday,
went to see Xmm ' s singing lesson..
at pasir ris...
it was a very cool place la..
got 1 full room just for karaokay.. and the room is sealed cant hear from otuside lo..
and all the karaokay systems inside..
omg... 2 big mirrors that made the room look v big..
saw her photo when she was young la... lol
thought it was her sis.. they look exactly the same omg..
then went off after 1 hr ..
the time passed super fast there some how..
still had to go off reluctantly after being scolded by huan sheng lol..
reached chen sang at 4 plus...
and kapop, who said he would reach in 1 min an hour ago, havent reached..
and he said he would reach soon when i called him..
yet, after 1 hr, he still did not reach...
and din answer my call =.=
so went to watch harry potter wif huan sheng...
waited 1 hr at arcade for the movie to start and saw wei ming and his frens, cardshop frens and 3-8 gang at there =.= ...
played quite long on house of the dead cos huan sheng felt it was fun..
then went into the cinema..
actually i suggested to go to cathay, but he insisted that jubilee would be cheaper and it turned out to be $8.50 per ticket lol...
i could not believe jubilee could be full...
yawn.. could not put our legs on the seats in front..
the movie was kinda boring at the start ..
except the kiss scene..lol
they like kissed for 20 sec plus sia..
and the ending really suck..
he complained that we should have watched transformers lol..

i thought i have thought through..
i thought i had just survived without you..
i thought i could totally forget about you..
yet,
each time,
by just seeing you once,
my heart proved my wrong once more..
i noe we are 2 parallel lines that would never cross..
it once did out of mistake..
now it is corrected..
it wont make the same mistake again..
yet, its so cruel..
we are parallel, and i can see you anytime,
and each time drilling my heart a hole..

i thought to pretend that you are no logner important to mi, i could save myself..
i thought to turn away from you, i could forget about you..
but sadly, part of my life is you..
the whole of my heart already belong to you..
i donno when i can get it back ..
i donno when i can get out of this..
but for now, i am contented, to be your parallel line..
watching at you..

yawn...
reached home at 11 pm sia..
morning was taking care of my didi..
afternoon went k box wif cai rong.. cos no1 else wanna go..
we trained for our talentine...(i m not joining wif her, just go train together)
then after that went to find kapok for bball..
saw bear bear that group, they were going home to watch donno wat live concert..
then went 513 wif pok pok to play bball..
saw wei ming and his frens at 1 side of the court..
ther other half was marcus frens..
played wif marcus frens...
oh ya, on the way there i realised my memory stick was spoiled again.. =.=
same thing happened as last time..zz
i gave up......
i shall live without music......
we played bball till 9 then went to chen sang to meet wei kang and mark..
wei kang brought his gf --> xiao hong =.=
played a while then somehow i played 1 v 2 wif pok pok and mark...
si bei tiring...(note "si bei" is actually a bad word, don say it too often)
after that become play full court =.=
they were amazed by my speed and stamina huh?
cos i don like to lose..lol
thats why so pin1 ming4..
oh ya, realsed my singing got a big problem..
my jia3 yin1 can only sing for high pitvhes and real voice below a certain pitches..
then between an area, i cant reach....dot dot...
can any1 tell mi wat to do? lol...think not..
anyway, now i am back home..
after the tiring day outside, full of sweat ...

omg..yesterday was too dam tired..din have energy to move my finger, so slacked through..lol..
erm, yesterday nth much happened la..
skipped extra lesson cos all the humanities..
yee ching came for the 1st 10 min of recess to try out a new song wif mi..
and joanna and yok was #@$#$# at there =.=
then at night went for maths lesson..
whole period xh was kbing mi la..zz
commented on my T shirt.. thnx ah
then today mass workout erm, changed the dance..
still quite bo liao..
and many ppl commented when i was doing the workout =.=
dont i look like those guai ppl that will do this activities?
then 1st lesson geog elect, i noe i cant pay attention,
so i read the text book for the whole lesson..
then the teacher still scold mi for not paying attention..sian
then after that maths lesson..
teacher not here..
pan lu cai rong and hui tian was practicing singing in the class =.=
every1 could hear them la..
alot ppl wanted to shut them up but dint..
lol...they sing v loud somemore wif the cd player playing out loud..
wow..they really got gut...
then recess time the 2-4 class ppl were at canteen..
wei jie was kinda excited?
ok mi 2 i cant blame him..lol
understanable...
he was looking at that direction all the time..
i managed to control myself..lol..what am i talking la...
then after sku our classs ppl went straight for bball at cc..
played till dam late and tired sia..when reach home was like 5?
and had my lunch then..
then slept till 7 plus..yawn...

i am kinda confused =.=

should i trust my instinct, or should i trust my source of info.

or should i try ur personality..

yawn..wats has really happened..

should i be like last time and have a tlak with u?

but previous ones were such failures..

they din help..

or should i just keep silent..

nvm, guess it doent matter anymore..

its impossible for us anyway...

and i should not care who u are wif...

last night could not sleep again..
heng got tummy pei mi till 1...
if not dam sian..
still got no strength during morning la..zz
then today is another full day huh..
lesson time not so bad, tried my best to stay awake in maths lesson..
hm..then pure lit was sleeping..
the teacher was crapping also..
then chinese, teacher confiscated the comic i was reading! zzz
then after that watched 2 periods of movie..
helped marven to sit together wif joanna to my extream liao la..
after sku erm, did maths paper while waiting for yee ching for her lunch..
then went to her class for the singing practice..
lol..she said she was quite gan dong by the voices ...wow
k la, got improvement in mo4 qi4..
then cannot make eye contact..zz..i will turn away....lol
gotta try..
practiced al lthe way till 5...
cos she got donno wat audition for DSA for choir..
then bused home and slept...
din intend to go for tuition at first cos was super tired plus xh was supposed not going..
in the end her dad sent her there from a far place and i rushed there and was 40min late =.=
the teacher was as lame as before...
then went home after the torture..
and helped mei carry her super heavy bag =.=
my shoulder still aching sia..lol
if told her earlier she sure say she will feel guilty =.=
then later on received a sms from yee ching, apologising that she did not concentrate while practicing..=.=
like who will la.....
now gals have become really more and more complicated sia..
oh ya! supposed to go cut hair wif huan sheng today, totally forgotten..yawn..
next week finally can meet kitten and onion..
hope it wont be cancelled again..
omg, now i began to miss jian hui and wei chean..and tat steph...ahhhalmost meet up wif every1 except them for long time!

now come to think about it.
how could my nature be that kind..
its impossible for mi to mix around with them..
yes..
in fact, i hate them, i feel disgusted when i see them..
i shall use my own way then..
i shall find my own path..
i will prove to you..
i will live a meaningful life...

tuesday.. another full day...tired sia..
whole night could not sleep..
i noe my mind was the problem..
but it could not be helped...
went ksu by bus..
1st time in the term =.=
previously walked to sku, but was too tired this morning..
then had maths and chem and english...
of cos got chinese, my sleeping lesson and EFL, counsilor investiture..=.=
the dance was, erm..lol..funny..
k then extra lesson, only got chem extra lesson...
after that went home....
slept a little while and went for bball training at ah siao place..
when 1st got there, i was totally stunned =.=
all the lao jiao there..the under 18 group not here..
then gotta play wif them...
stressed sia..
surprisingly, i could cope up with their skill?
alot of them are either super fat or super tall =.=
lucky got 1 dam good player in my team?
we coorporated well wif ah siao' s guaidence..
won quite alot matches..
then went home early cos was really too tired plus got alot hw..
yet now i am slacking =.=
was told that i will be joining his open age conpetition this year ..
and i they say i improved alot..wohoo..
when i actually slacked a few months before started bball again..
phew..
ha, ok done wif today's ...tired liao..

ok today alot of things happened today..
morning mok came my house to upload mp3 things..
then slept a while and went to find him play...
alot ppl at gsc but all the kiddy noobs..
good speed should change to good speed playground..
went to play bball instaed..
standard ppl at there..
xing ling tat gang ..
saw marcus and his frens too...
played quite some time.. then a group of c gals sku team of mayflower came..
they played wif us but it was like playing wif kids also..
then went back to gsc and played dota wif wei jian and his frens..
-arsp and we gotta 4v5 them wif 2 other noobs....
though i performed well we still lost..
then went home and eat a little and wei kang called mi to jio mi for bball...
then we all went to 438 cos cc was booked for tikuandoo..
kapo and huansheng were wif us..
saw ah xiao there..zz...he was questioning why i nv go for the trainings..ops.
gotta go tml..sian..
after that went kfc to eat wif huan sheng and kapo..


finally, i understand wats happening...
ya i was a fool..
but its okay...
i have learnt to be smart..
i am not gonna torture myself anymore..
i will join those ppl...
not to protect myself cos i don need protection..
but for wat i shall not say...
now i am deciding on the time to join..
any1 wanna help mi vote?
1st- anderson
2nd- deyi sec
3rd- amk sec
4th- my coach side if i old enough..
which1 sounds more cool?
now though i still don understand why so many ppl say they are attractive
but since 1 of the most disgusting guy i thought, can capture ur heart,
guess they really have their adventage huh...
sorry stranger...
i am very sorry..
though i will double think..
i think its not possible to change my chosen path..
i have many frens of those kind,
maybe that was my nature and recently it starts to show itself..
maybe...
since its my chosen path..
i will live my best out of it...
nows the matter of time..
o level is coming..
or should i even care?
i donno...
guess only miracles can pull mi back...
lets see if the frens i gain is more then the number of frens i lose..
anyway.. no more love for mi.. ^^
its totally lame..
and for you..
though i doubt you even care about what i say...
doubt you even care about mi now..
i am just a nobody who passed by you and had a chance to talk to you...
anyway...
hope you live a happy life with no regrets......
for the last time i am gonna say..
i really really love you so...
good luck for both you and mi....

ok today sunday..
morning time woke up..
played a match of dota 1st..
mum was nagging all the way beside mi..
half way she got curious of my game (dota)
and got interested in it..
was playing and explaining to her..lol
then she went off also..
i mopped the floor and went to the com again..
then mok called mi to meet him right then..zzz
and do wat? watch him sell his cards.. yawn...
wasted so much time wif him...in the end was late for tuition, not really late la..pak leng was last.
yun jie wasl ike complaining? cos she got there earliest for the 1st time...
and it was super early...lol..
finally she wear skirt? =.=
she had been wearing mini shorts for like 2 months?
ok i got amazed...
during the tuition i could not concentrate la, was falling asleep..yawn.
then went to 438 to play bball while waiting for mok to finish his movie...
dam lot of ppl...in the end my team lsot to a gorila and i went to central wif jeremy and that deyi gang together..
a bad decision..
it was dam diu lian la, all keep shouting screaming =.= kaos..
and 1 wear underwear outside his pants, (pink 1)
i was like covering my face on the way there..
lol..for this reason i will never join such thing..
k when reach gsc, mok was already playing..and he got owned..lol
played 2 fun mathes after that and pei ed him to buy his mp3 --- no free charger
and the bloody charger costed $30 =.=
obviously tat guy was cheating money la..
sadly he was rushing to buy..
rich guy sia...
then went home and here i am, after eating my late dinner...
still feeling dizzy though..
oh ya..got a funny incident,
during the return bus ride wif yun jie, a couple sit right infront of us..
tat guy was like keep touching the gal?
we were like laughing all the way till i get down the bus..lol...
hopw it wasnt obvious.. but a nice entertainment provided ^^